grayblue

bad night.

i shouldn't have fallen in love with her nearly a year ago.

i shouldn't have seen her at my bar tonight.

i shouldn't have said hello.

i should've recognized that she was trying to not be around me.

i shouldn't have made her that cd last winter.

i shouldn't have met her.

i shouldn't have spent time with her.

i shouldn't have let her break my heart.

once last winter. again tonight.

i shouldn't have found her at last call to give her my number.

i shouldn't have walked away from the fight her boyfriend tried to pick.

i should've known, as i've always known, that i am destined to be alone.

i should've know that i am a cold, self-centered, heartless prick of a man.

i shouldn't let meaningless, yet meaningful bullshit get to me like this.

i should know better.
period.