too much time alone in my room. starting to feel down again. thinking of her a lot. i miss her. and i can't tell if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
am i being whiny? does this all make me seem pathetic?
GODDAMMIT.
i just want to know one way or the other. i want to know that it could work and have...
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am i being whiny? does this all make me seem pathetic?
GODDAMMIT.
i just want to know one way or the other. i want to know that it could work and have...
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rocket2:
awwwww cheer up! dont feel blue. the worst thin or could ofs or should ofs. youre proly just missing the whole feeling that she personifies. but if you dont start imagining other people who can fill her place....you wont be open to new love. 
rocket2:
that was a little jumbled but you get the point.
the wheels, they are a-churnin'.
my roommate just asked me if i'd want to vid her fashion show next year (she's a fashion major) and i was like, HELL YEAH! do it up hard-core professional style. only requisite - she has to make a suit for me. thinking something double-breasted in corduroy. yeah, i'm weird like that. so i'm trying to find pics of suits...
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my roommate just asked me if i'd want to vid her fashion show next year (she's a fashion major) and i was like, HELL YEAH! do it up hard-core professional style. only requisite - she has to make a suit for me. thinking something double-breasted in corduroy. yeah, i'm weird like that. so i'm trying to find pics of suits...
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rocket2:
work it boy!
thirtyseven:
oh that fashion show. those girls all came into pitaya and take on clothes that were sometimes a size too small for them and wear them in the show. i had to work last year when they did it. they all came in at one time. it was a bit overwhelming.
i'll let you know when i'm coming down. i definitely want to do it soon.
i'll let you know when i'm coming down. i definitely want to do it soon.
well spank my ass and call me.... um, by my name.
is getting involved with a married woman a bad idea?
hmmm....
going to the IU b-ball game tonight with the padre, should be interesting, i've not been to one. i'm not a HUGE fan, but man, when the ncaa tournament hits, i'm hard-core. i watch every IU game. i can't help it. now that...
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is getting involved with a married woman a bad idea?
hmmm....
going to the IU b-ball game tonight with the padre, should be interesting, i've not been to one. i'm not a HUGE fan, but man, when the ncaa tournament hits, i'm hard-core. i watch every IU game. i can't help it. now that...
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user8935778:
HOMEWRECKER. hehe just joking.
interview went well. thanks for asking. weeeeeee!
interview went well. thanks for asking. weeeeeee!
hellkitten:
*spanks your ass and then since she doesn't know your name, spanks you again*
what i have discovered in my first two days of classes this semester:
i have no reason WHATSOEVER to show up to "intro to computers and computing" except for the exams. which is nice.
my teachers seem cool so far
I AM GOING TO BE GLUED TO EDITING STATIONS ALL SEMESTER
at the end of the semester, i will have no less than 16 completed...
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i have no reason WHATSOEVER to show up to "intro to computers and computing" except for the exams. which is nice.
my teachers seem cool so far
I AM GOING TO BE GLUED TO EDITING STATIONS ALL SEMESTER
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user8935778:
sounds like you're enjoying it.
my first day of classes was odd. one film class where i have to rent the films myself then come in and discuss in class.. (our firt movies are dr. strangelove and fail safe.. it's a class on the cold war)... then my second class is on the old south. taught by a southerner who.. seems rather interesting. third class is taught my a guy who seems to have tourrets. did i spell that right? and last class.. well is a movie class once a week.. and the guys son is fucking taking the class. how messed up is that?!
anyhow. glad youre gonna have a great semester. i want my indiana shirt!
my first day of classes was odd. one film class where i have to rent the films myself then come in and discuss in class.. (our firt movies are dr. strangelove and fail safe.. it's a class on the cold war)... then my second class is on the old south. taught by a southerner who.. seems rather interesting. third class is taught my a guy who seems to have tourrets. did i spell that right? and last class.. well is a movie class once a week.. and the guys son is fucking taking the class. how messed up is that?!
anyhow. glad youre gonna have a great semester. i want my indiana shirt!
_michael:
what are you editing on?
as of tonight, semester break is offically kaput. classes start tomorrow, and i'm damned excited about it. for once. this semester whould be damn good as far as school is concerned. looking forward very much to my video art class. managed to finagle my way into a 300-level fine arts course with no priors in the FA department (a virtual impossibility it might seem given...
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gil:
it good to treat your self to a new toy or two sometimes
whiskey_____:
aww, thanks baby!
aww, thanks baby!
okay, got my financial aide check today, deposited it, and i'm already looking for ways to spend it 
new tv and vcr will be purchased this evening, pda, new subwoofer and tape player for the car to come soon after. i should save some of it.....
but i won't. my family is incapable of such things
new tv and vcr will be purchased this evening, pda, new subwoofer and tape player for the car to come soon after. i should save some of it.....
but i won't. my family is incapable of such things
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_michael:
cute glasses
elisabeth:
Yes, I am grooving on the glasses.
man, ya fall asleep for six hours in the middle of the evening, and all your plans fall to shit. what the hell is that?! don't people take six hour naps at 6:00 anymore? why the hell not?!
eh. feeelin'... i dunno. weird. kinda down, kinda horny, kinda buzzed, kinda lonely.
welcome to my mind, where nothing is ever expressed in definite terms.
i guess...
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eh. feeelin'... i dunno. weird. kinda down, kinda horny, kinda buzzed, kinda lonely.
welcome to my mind, where nothing is ever expressed in definite terms.
i guess...
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miss_piss:
oh, doll... i was just kidding
maybe now is the time to take a little breather and take a look at what the hell is going on...
x let me know if i can help...
maybe now is the time to take a little breather and take a look at what the hell is going on...
x let me know if i can help...
rocket2:
awww dont feel down! i think yer neat! 
Q: If lemmy and god had a fight, who would win?
A: TRICK QUESTION! Lemmy IS God!
name that movie.
A: TRICK QUESTION! Lemmy IS God!
name that movie.
user8935778:
ahahhahahaha airheads. glasses. so. hot.. mmmm.
crush with eyeliner = rem?
what do i win?
ps. today in class i heard that your school was rated the number 1 party school in a survey done by the princeton review. nice!
crush with eyeliner = rem?
what do i win?
ps. today in class i heard that your school was rated the number 1 party school in a survey done by the princeton review. nice!
elisabeth:
Neat, from what I can see..
catch it while you can kids, a shitty pic of me with my new specs. geek sheik all the way, ooooh yeah.
so, why the new pic and lack fo posts lately? been busy as hell, working a lot this week, and spent today watching my nephew.
now, i got a drunken booty call this evening (3:30 am), and chose not to do it, cuz...
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so, why the new pic and lack fo posts lately? been busy as hell, working a lot this week, and spent today watching my nephew.
now, i got a drunken booty call this evening (3:30 am), and chose not to do it, cuz...
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misha9999999:
I was comment in your journal before you commented in
mine. funny. working a lot rules. and standing your grounds
with girls is something I respect a lot in other people.
mine. funny. working a lot rules. and standing your grounds
with girls is something I respect a lot in other people.
hellkitten:
great glasses 8o) i had a pair like that once, although, they were tortishell.
by the by, has anyone named that rem song yet?
by the by, has anyone named that rem song yet?
sooooooooo, life, she does trudge along like a lumbering... lumbering.... hmmm... can't think of something to put in there.
but anyway, i'm doing fairly well, went out with a gal the other night... whew. she kinda attacked me as we were leaving the place... she's nice, but i'm not seein' anything there... 'cept maybe some makin' out, etc. have a few days off from work....
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but anyway, i'm doing fairly well, went out with a gal the other night... whew. she kinda attacked me as we were leaving the place... she's nice, but i'm not seein' anything there... 'cept maybe some makin' out, etc.
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lil_billy_ben:
Fuckin'a I gotta pay for my books I dont qualify for financial aid. It's all good hopfuly in the end it will be worth it.
gil:
i was gonna go get new glasses today but i couldnt find my credit card till 3 hrs ago
maybe tomarow
& i say ask her WDYGTL
maybe tomarow
& i say ask her WDYGTL
teh eve has come and gone, and i'm feeling beter now. made it through the last hump o' the holidays, and i really am starting to feel better. spoent the eve with a couple friends from work, drank some beer and a bottle of champagne, and came out this morning with no hangover.
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elise:
i most certainly was at a certain drinking establishment this fine evening sir. 
were you as well?
were you as well?
elise:
well i don't believe i saw you...but who knows? i might have! i drank as well, had fun with my friends...walked around the cold, cold town...came home, went to bed at 6am and today i have no hangover yay! i hope you feel better soon
i drank as well, had fun with my friends...walked around the cold, cold town...came home, went to bed at 6am and today i have no hangover yay! i hope you feel better soon soo yeah, i've come to realize that unless i'm drunk, i don't know how to be happy without her. three years (on and off once) with her. and i've realized that i don't know how to be happy. i think that this is a problem. but i don't want to get help. i hated it before. being medicated. i don't want to do it again,...
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_michael:
advice from the old man...
you will get over her, may take another one, but you will, takes time my friend, and one day you wont believe you went out with her.
on lingering depression..
you will always feel as wierd and sad as you did at 13, just in varying degrees, and you can make a life for yourself trying to compensate for that feeling. i tried....its taking meds and alot of work to really shake it off but it still creeps up.
happy new year.
enjoy the alone sadness, you'll crave it when your not alone anymore...trust me
you will get over her, may take another one, but you will, takes time my friend, and one day you wont believe you went out with her.
on lingering depression..
you will always feel as wierd and sad as you did at 13, just in varying degrees, and you can make a life for yourself trying to compensate for that feeling. i tried....its taking meds and alot of work to really shake it off but it still creeps up.
happy new year.
enjoy the alone sadness, you'll crave it when your not alone anymore...trust me
lil_billy_ben:
At least try to get her back bro, you owe it to yourself.