Thursday Feb 27, 2003

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this film
this damn film!
IT"S KEEPING ME FROM SLEEPING!
i woke up wide awake at 6:45 this morning. (not of my own choosing).
the reason i woke up?
the last half hour i'd been asleep, i was planning shots.
planning shots in my sleep.
this thing is running deep.
surreal
gil:
the last few dreams ive had ive been taking pictures
funny how that works
misha9999999:
dedication is the only way, man.

Wednesday Feb 26, 2003

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just woke up.
had a dream.
dreamt of her.
she was older... looked good.
she had joined a band.
most of the songs were about me.
and how much she hated me.
and how she thought all of my work was horrible.
and about how stupid i actually am.
how i have no abilities.
and all i wanted to do was make her love me...
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gil:
\m/ smile \m/


i have some crazy ass dreams, but i always forget as soon as i wake up
misha9999999:
people have been disappointing me lately...
men and women.. everyone...

it's hard... sometimes I feel like cutting my balls
off rather than play these games...

[Edited on Feb 26, 2003]

Tuesday Feb 25, 2003

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odd day. here goes -
went to bed at about 11:30 last night, the earliest i've been to bed in quite a while.
woke up at 4:00, and couldn't get back to sleep.
decided around seven to stop in at work and get a cup of coffee, only to discover i had to work @ 7:30 (i thought i was working tomorrow).
so i come...
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elisabeth:
What's even weirder is that as I was reading this entry, the Geto Boys' 'Mind is Playing Trick on Me' came into my head. Yay for us weirdos wink
gil:
it hapens

i useualy get to bed round 4am and for no reason i woke up @ 8am couldnt get back to sleep *shrug*

Sunday Feb 23, 2003

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sooo friday night.
i started drinking at 8:00.
went till 3:00.
four kinds of beer... gin... beam.
we'll say i was hurtin' on saturday for my 8-hour shift at hell.
the event was the latest benefit for the free paper i occasionally write for http://www.thepin-up.com
Dada themed (as the last was a warhol theme). and it was outstanding... and i managed, while drunk, to (surprise...
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gil:
hell yeah,
i love thay stuff too
made my whole day
miss_piss:
hey bebe...
sorry
uh...i'm doing well...
i always make the first move

Thursday Feb 20, 2003

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working on my "personal project" idea for 16mm production....
it's so hard... i have ideas for shots.. the general emotions i want to convey visually....
but stringing it together...
that's the hard part.
expressing emotion in non-grandiose visual metaphor
can't concentrate enough. need to scout locations.
dammit
misha9999999:
general emotions of what sort? sounds like an interesting
project... are you gonna put it online when it's done?
like a quick time movie... you should. thanks dude for
answering the survey... it's ahm... supposed to bring
people together... and it did, I think.... jack... too much
of it... well there is no such thing as too much jack, right?...
how's the situation with the ex? mine's the same....
saw her today actually... I love to torture myself like that.
you know it's good for you, like cigarettes. like jack. like coke.
gil:
yeah, well i had a shit load of it

Sunday Feb 16, 2003

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GOD DAMN IT.
i am so sick of her bullshit. sure, i want her to be happy, but it really UFCKING PISSES ME OFF that she keeps calling me everytime she starts feeling bad. and then, after i've talked her through all her shit, she does littel things to make me jealous, to make me want to get back together with her. I AM SO...
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rocket2:
sane women are no fun. duh!!!! emotionally retarded people rock!! hehe. its me! its me! wink
grapefruit:
sometimes getting it out is what it's all about

Sunday Feb 16, 2003

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on the topic of dreams-
I had a dream a few nights ago. it was very odd. all i could remember of it was this, which i promptly jotted down - "i found something dark, in the back. something i had been looking for for a long time"
in the back of where, i have no idea.
as a child, i had a number of...
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thirtyseven:
i dreamed about a suuuuuuuiiiiiiiciiiiiiide giiiirl last night. confused
lil_billy_ben:
I hardly ever remember my dreams.frown

Saturday Feb 15, 2003

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i hate my boss.
lording my vacation over my head, promising me something, but not telling me how many days, or what days, like he thinks he's some sort of "benevolent" ruler. cocksucker. while all the kids who have taken every other holiday off, also get spring break. but me, the guy who has worked every holiday so far, gets nothing but the fucking run-around....
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lil_billy_ben:
Be romantic the payoff is nicer.wink
neon:
smile something so theraputic about destroying something and putting it back together in your way.

Wednesday Feb 12, 2003

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thanks to misha for the pic.
if i ever redo warhol's screentests, you're in.
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misha9999999:
he. smoking is bad for you. Did you know that?
user8935778:
like yoiu had to ASJK! YEAH!@#@ its fucking RAD@##@ you should come, ill take you out. and show you a GOOd time,@!!~ you xcan tel iw as drunk wrhen i wrote this.

Tuesday Feb 11, 2003

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can't go wrong with a classic. right?
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misha9999999:
might as well go all the way...

http://www.mechanicalsoul.com/pop.gif
miffy:
light eyes? I'm so used to of dark black/brown eyes I'm almost frightened by that image.... maybe I need to get out more.

PS. grape mentos are so worth it. and I mean that. SO.

[Edited on Feb 12, 2003]

Sunday Feb 09, 2003

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sometimes,
i wish my life would read like van morrison lyrics.

Sweet Thing -
And I will stroll the merry way
And jump the hedges first
And I will drink the clear
Clean water for to quench my thirst
And I shall watch the ferry-boats
And they'll get high
On a bluer ocean
Against tomorrow's sky
And I will never grow so old again
And...
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user8935778:
i dream of pablo neruda

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

[Edited on Feb 10, 2003]
gil:
if you dont have your own polaroid cam i can send you one to use

Friday Feb 07, 2003

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disappeared again, huh?
don't really know why... haven't had much to say lately i guess... kinda weird. just been doin' work and calsses and shit... watching waaay too much tv. i think i'll start going to the gym.
classes are picking up, projects are starting to get underway.... it's nice to be able to do nothing but work on film and video... no papers to...
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heathermaple:
hey, you know 11_11 (nate). I am not THAT random. It's not like you're that far, geez! smile
heathermaple:
hey, you know 11_11 (nate). I am not THAT random. It's not like you're that far, geez! smile
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