"if you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it.
anything you want....do it.
want to change the world? there's nothing...to it"
everything moves fluidly in this world. as time flows, things are in constant change. every minute of every day for better or for worse, whether tragedy or ecstasy, we are in constant flux.
there is no moment we can't re-direct the flow of our destiny and move ourselves in another direction. the new direction, the new road, could lead to a more terrible outcome, but the journey is the most important aspect. if we can make the journey to this outcome more pleasurable, then we should do it.
it's never too late for re-invention.
it's never too late to move out, move in, lose weight, get a better job, go to college, have a kid, marry your lover, divorce your spouse, get a girlfriend, get a boyfriend, become a vegetarian, start eating meat, become an atheist, become religious, make a good friend, lose a bad friend, make a bad friend, fuck over a good friend to make a better means to your end, tell someone you love them, ignore someone you hate, join a club, give someone a hug, smile, have sex with complete strangers which could be a horrible danger but is still fun, buy a gun, sell your gun, adopt a pet, buy a car, sell a car, take a trip, by car, by ship, by plane, go insane or just come back to our world again.
sometimes i wish i could believe everything i say is true.
sometimes i wish i could believe in re-invention.
sometimes i wish people could just forget about the mistakes i made in my past, but it's a glaring truth i have to face. people will always know about my problems saving money, my fights with lynn, my dependency on my mom, my dependency on my dad, the fact that i'm a twenty-five year old little boy, carin, anna, sarah, tiffany, allison, and bre, my low self-esteem, my weight problems and effect that has on my personality, videogames, my addiction to buying rad DVDs, my addiction to buying rad books, my lack of funds, and frankly, my writer's block.
sometimes i can't accept help.
sometimes i think i don't i even care to help myself.
i sometimes feel numb to the world.
i think, right now, that i'm so numb i can't even feel my own heart break sometimes.
anything you want....do it.
want to change the world? there's nothing...to it"
everything moves fluidly in this world. as time flows, things are in constant change. every minute of every day for better or for worse, whether tragedy or ecstasy, we are in constant flux.
there is no moment we can't re-direct the flow of our destiny and move ourselves in another direction. the new direction, the new road, could lead to a more terrible outcome, but the journey is the most important aspect. if we can make the journey to this outcome more pleasurable, then we should do it.
it's never too late for re-invention.
it's never too late to move out, move in, lose weight, get a better job, go to college, have a kid, marry your lover, divorce your spouse, get a girlfriend, get a boyfriend, become a vegetarian, start eating meat, become an atheist, become religious, make a good friend, lose a bad friend, make a bad friend, fuck over a good friend to make a better means to your end, tell someone you love them, ignore someone you hate, join a club, give someone a hug, smile, have sex with complete strangers which could be a horrible danger but is still fun, buy a gun, sell your gun, adopt a pet, buy a car, sell a car, take a trip, by car, by ship, by plane, go insane or just come back to our world again.
sometimes i wish i could believe everything i say is true.
sometimes i wish i could believe in re-invention.
sometimes i wish people could just forget about the mistakes i made in my past, but it's a glaring truth i have to face. people will always know about my problems saving money, my fights with lynn, my dependency on my mom, my dependency on my dad, the fact that i'm a twenty-five year old little boy, carin, anna, sarah, tiffany, allison, and bre, my low self-esteem, my weight problems and effect that has on my personality, videogames, my addiction to buying rad DVDs, my addiction to buying rad books, my lack of funds, and frankly, my writer's block.
sometimes i can't accept help.
sometimes i think i don't i even care to help myself.
i sometimes feel numb to the world.
i think, right now, that i'm so numb i can't even feel my own heart break sometimes.
crypticrapture:
ditto. 