gravedoll666

Ok, I am in a paticular bad mood. Okay, I finally found the number to get ahold of an old flame. I haven't seen in him in two years! I mean I wasn't calling him to rekindle it, just to see how he was doing....It was great to finally hear from him but I wanna slap him if he said what he said to me in person...(first off he sounded irritated on the phone) then he says to me "i hate to tell you but I am married now with a kid on the way." I was thinking "who the hell do you take me for????" I was just upset cause he always told me that he'd never wanna get married. I mean I loved him something fierce and would of tried to get in contact with him a long time ago if I knew it was that easy. So anyway I'm just kinda blah cause I'm sad and hurt and happy all at once, cause now that I have all my loose ends from my past tied up I can move foward with my life. I feel alot better about myself for atleast going back to correct what in my heart I felt was wrong. But when I found all that out I felt a huge rock in my path move away!! It was uplifting yet pissed cause for two years I wanted to see him so badly and in that time he had come to hate me. I used to want to know why he never called me etc when he got deployed and we lost touch. Now I'd rather not know! But now I can only look towards the future..so..Chris I love you and I'm ready to go ahead, a whole good/bad thing...it hurts but it'll go away in time!! Time almost always heals all wounds!! See Yah!! love,
THE LORD AND MASTER:p
Jack & Nate I'm counting on you to cheer me up!!