blah, nobody loves me today!! 
well the world is an ash tray today, it just sucks...I'm not feeling sorry for myself, I just genuinely hate myself. Things are just a cluttered clod of shit that I can't find my way out of, it took me a whole year just to orginize my thoughts on last year now it's gunna take that long before I settle into this one. Being in reality just bites ass like so hard core. Especially when it's that 'unfair' part of reality...
well I say that I hate myself cause I just wanna take a knife to my body and give myself a personal 'nip/tuck', to make myself into the symbol of what so many ppl find visually pleasing now a days! It irritates me when I feel like this cause beyond anything I know that I will never fit in that laddle made of silver..it's just blah....*brain fart* I hate me, cause apparently I can't really get guys to even notice me unless I post sexy/naked pics up, and in public I have to look like a whore, if I dress normal I never get a 2nd look, I'm just too homely. Yeah, I'm married I shouldn't worry about that, but like anyone I want validation or just attention. Which I don't get really. I'm lonely and going insane. That razor blade is starting to look mighty friendly, just blood, not death, just blood. Just pain..just to numb...*sigh* oh wait, I have ppl that care about me...I forgot....*irritated smirk* okay just booze then, cause there is no sound, word, or feeling to get out what I want to say or feel. No angry lyrics, no depressing song...just me, plain, boring ME! EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!
P.S. IF ANYONE WANTS TO REMOVE ME FROM THEIR FRIENDS LISTS TO SAVE SPACE PLS DO OR ANYONE THAT WANTS ME TO REMOVE THEM LEMME KNOW! k BYE
well the world is an ash tray today, it just sucks...I'm not feeling sorry for myself, I just genuinely hate myself. Things are just a cluttered clod of shit that I can't find my way out of, it took me a whole year just to orginize my thoughts on last year now it's gunna take that long before I settle into this one. Being in reality just bites ass like so hard core. Especially when it's that 'unfair' part of reality...
well I say that I hate myself cause I just wanna take a knife to my body and give myself a personal 'nip/tuck', to make myself into the symbol of what so many ppl find visually pleasing now a days! It irritates me when I feel like this cause beyond anything I know that I will never fit in that laddle made of silver..it's just blah....*brain fart* I hate me, cause apparently I can't really get guys to even notice me unless I post sexy/naked pics up, and in public I have to look like a whore, if I dress normal I never get a 2nd look, I'm just too homely. Yeah, I'm married I shouldn't worry about that, but like anyone I want validation or just attention. Which I don't get really. I'm lonely and going insane. That razor blade is starting to look mighty friendly, just blood, not death, just blood. Just pain..just to numb...*sigh* oh wait, I have ppl that care about me...I forgot....*irritated smirk* okay just booze then, cause there is no sound, word, or feeling to get out what I want to say or feel. No angry lyrics, no depressing song...just me, plain, boring ME! EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!
P.S. IF ANYONE WANTS TO REMOVE ME FROM THEIR FRIENDS LISTS TO SAVE SPACE PLS DO OR ANYONE THAT WANTS ME TO REMOVE THEM LEMME KNOW! k BYE
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vmpr:
*hugs*
jackd:
Excellent, I wanna get drunk and go to the races, lol- I'll give you a ring on the 12th when I touchdown, if I can get your #-Yarrr! 