gravedoll666

Well at this point agression is pointless..so far all that will suffice is getting drunk and feeling sorry for myself! I dunno, especially w/h the ppl that live here that contact me on aol, they think just b/c I say that I am married and that my hubby is deployed they think that they have a shot!!! That's the only thing that really gets me mad!! If they want to hang out then that's fine, I'll buy em' an ice cream or something...just not sex, just b/c I offer to come over and drink that I wanna have sex w/h them..and as far as what you say on here, my husband knows how I feel about him nagging on the people I talk to or they make sexual comments or something..since he's so whipped (I love you sweetie!! ) he'll end up apologizing...No, he's not really whipped he just actually listens!!! love him for it! But I am gunna take the pics down...I'll leave a few in case you get bored w/h what I have to say so you can stare at my chest!! Ahhhh, I dunno..it just seems that I always attract the wrong ppl...(me and my husband met by chance and in some way by accident!!) I'm starting to think that I'm just a bad person, it makes me wanna curl up into a ball and be mad at the world for tainting me. But if I did that I'd be contradicting myself, I hate when people bitch about how thier kids are affected by the doings of others, and yes, we are affected by the enviornment that we are in it's just that it essentially leads down to the decisions we make, our perception of right or wrong. So if I was going to be mad at anything I should be mad at myself..for not trying hard enough and accepting what the world has handed me, but as long as I can feel that drive, that basic human instinct boiling deep in my heart, the will to survive since my life has almost ended several times from birth till now I have fought for what I have and it sometimes takes a bad mood to realize it b/c you analyize what you are mad at, weigh the pros and cons and establish a solution, my solution: Appricate who I am and what I have, know that I'm not a bad person. I'm just so nice ppl want to take advantage of that. If I'm gunna have a dream not to cast aside the reality part. Cause if I neglect the reality of it all it will end up as another dream. Also, mood swings are wonderful! Anway I'm going to go now!!