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This is what security, perfection and bliss is supposed to feel like.

I haven't slept in more that 40 hours and I'm running on caffeine and heineken.

I'd try and run away but now I've made sure that I've tied myself down.

I can't complain, everythings been working out for me lately....except my hair color, but whatever, I'll live.

I thought I never would, but found some kind of happiness in someone who makes me feel totally comfortable to be myself around, I can do/say anything around him and it's great. He's so awesome.

I know I said I wouldn't date, but come on, it's been over...
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Only through death do you become ageless.

He was everything I wanted; dark hair, dark eyes, tattoos, piercings, not skinny or built, but kinda sorta perfect.

We shared glances, my cell phone rings, you recognise the ring tone as I put it on ignore...I scribbled down my e-mail address on a piece of paper in hopes that you'll write.

I got the e-mail today and for some reason I can't reply. Maybe...
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Kinda makes you realize who your real friends are...



I should be angry, but your "thank you" note is in the mail because you're never too old to learn a worthwhile lesson.

ok so I'm thinking it's baout time for a new journal entry.... I really don't have much to write about though, because I've been brutally sick for the past 4 days and haven't actually left my house, not once. It's pretty sad and I feel like shit all the time...from being sick and from not being able to go out [I missed gay pride ]...
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I hate the golden griddle.
I hate my hair.
I hate the heat.
I hate wearing sunscreen.
I hate tanned skin.
I hate having to wake up.
I hate having to sleep at a decent hour.
I hate it when you sit beside me on the bus.

I love distance, I want more of it.

I don't answer the phone.

It's because I don't care.

I've strapped myself into other peoples vices and have been there for so many years that the metal has rusted through, and into my skin, it's a part of me, you're a part of me. I lie, I always have, I wanted one thing...and got it...at the expense of myself. I wish it came with a receipt, I want a refund.