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so, saturday night.
it was nightmarish this afternoon for five or six hours. it's been over a year or two since things were that bad.

i joined a few groups. this is the first time i've looked around at them.
they seem very interesting. maybe i'll get to know some people on SG.

after i recovered this evening . . . i decided i need to disclose that i am disabled to potential employers. you may have seen the movie on howard hughes, the part where he seems to become like a machine or stranger, lost in some form of autonomic loop. it's like that. i couldn't work very well if that happened as severely as it did today.
my last job it used to happen sometimes. it wasn't very pleasant.

it was cold again today. the weather is stranger every year.
i'm tired now. but i've been having some restless insomnia.
i am so relieved the episode earlier today came to a close.

maybe tomorrow i'll see if i can do some housecleaning.
i'll also see if i can look for jobs online. or i'll start doing that tonight.