I think I have totally reached my breaking point..... No matter what I do it wrong or just doesn't seem to work! Everything seems to be falling apart piece by peice.
Then I have to deal with the idea that I'm starting to get sick again! About 10 years ago I was diagnosed with Trigemial Neuralgia - a microvasular nerve compression of the facial nerves. It's the most indiscrible pain than gets increasing worse over time. The last time that I had major issues with it I was in and out of the hospital until we were able to get it under control with medication. After time I was able to dicontinue the meds and get back to a normal life. Well for the past 2 months I have started to having more and more episiods..... Since I no longer have insurance I can not afford to the doctor, hosipal or medication. I ahve dealt with all of my other health issues pretty but I actually fear this disorder....the pain actually makes me feel as if I'm losing my mind.
Then you add the fact that I'm so drepressed about my job and finiances that I'm driving myself crazy! I know that everyone is having a hard time in this economy and I should be happy that I have a job but.... I commited 10 yrs to my company to have my entire career crushed by another persons actions and lies. I have seriously had my income cut in half. I have applied to so many jobs just to hear that I'm over quialified or I do not have currnet skills ( food service ) be hired. I'm even having issues getting another job within my own damn company!! WTF!!!
In all I'm tired............... tears aren't even giving me relief anymore.
I just don't know what else I can do or how much more I can lose......
Then I have to deal with the idea that I'm starting to get sick again! About 10 years ago I was diagnosed with Trigemial Neuralgia - a microvasular nerve compression of the facial nerves. It's the most indiscrible pain than gets increasing worse over time. The last time that I had major issues with it I was in and out of the hospital until we were able to get it under control with medication. After time I was able to dicontinue the meds and get back to a normal life. Well for the past 2 months I have started to having more and more episiods..... Since I no longer have insurance I can not afford to the doctor, hosipal or medication. I ahve dealt with all of my other health issues pretty but I actually fear this disorder....the pain actually makes me feel as if I'm losing my mind.
Then you add the fact that I'm so drepressed about my job and finiances that I'm driving myself crazy! I know that everyone is having a hard time in this economy and I should be happy that I have a job but.... I commited 10 yrs to my company to have my entire career crushed by another persons actions and lies. I have seriously had my income cut in half. I have applied to so many jobs just to hear that I'm over quialified or I do not have currnet skills ( food service ) be hired. I'm even having issues getting another job within my own damn company!! WTF!!!
In all I'm tired............... tears aren't even giving me relief anymore.
I just don't know what else I can do or how much more I can lose......
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daenerys:
man i am sorry!! life can throw some shitty curve balls. <3
lorannah:
Pain on a daily basis is very very hard to take i know and it WILl make you feel like you could go crazy. Stress with finances and bills can take a person over and bring them to a very very low point of strength and high high point of stress... i've been dealing with this myself.... so all in all.... breathe... and i pray things go easier for you.