Faith...
This something I try to live by...not in a regious sence but as a whole. In the past 24 hrs Faith is starting to bring me full circle. Back to where my life took such a wicked twist and I got lost for a long time. Since all of that I put many of the pieces of my life back in order and continued to move forward.
Well yesterday my life took a strange twist....I found a childhood friend on Facebook yesterday and sent her a letter. In doing so I have opened up a treasure chest of memeries that I thought that I had lost. Back when I was a child our families are extremely close. We actually became one huge extended family before that concept was even cool! I grew my friend Jenny and her sisters..her grandparents became my grandparents. We spent summers working their families fields and playing together. We attended each other functions and such. This was a strange but good thing since I was an only child.
Well by the time High School was coming to an end ( our senior ) year things had started changing. Jenny grandfather had pasted that summer ( I think it was ) and I had switch to a private school. I was no longer around things so familiar - which turn out to be better for me. The my father became ill - we found out he came cancer in Oct. and buried him in June....just after my gradutation. I stayed home and did not go to my dream school. I do not regret staying home because I became best friends with my mother. Five years later my mother became ill.....we found out she too had cancer in Janurary and I buried here in July. My life continued to fall apart from there....I separted from my first love and wife. Thinking I have no more family left I started my downard spirial!! I proceed to disappear....I begain to party and distroy myself for years because I was so hurt and lost.But not know that my family across the street was trying to watch over me. After I dispeared they tried to find me to let me know that my other family was here for me.
After I few years of being fucked up I decided I had enough and started over.....so here I am!
Over the years I had gotten used to the idea that I was last of my family. But what i've learned is that family not just blood that runs in your vains but who you keep dearest in you heart. After thinking I was alone for so long it is almost over welming to think that I really wasn't. My other family was worried and trying to find me.
I have always know that someone out there was still there for me but never knew who it was or would I meet up with them again...
Faith........
This something I try to live by...not in a regious sence but as a whole. In the past 24 hrs Faith is starting to bring me full circle. Back to where my life took such a wicked twist and I got lost for a long time. Since all of that I put many of the pieces of my life back in order and continued to move forward.
Well yesterday my life took a strange twist....I found a childhood friend on Facebook yesterday and sent her a letter. In doing so I have opened up a treasure chest of memeries that I thought that I had lost. Back when I was a child our families are extremely close. We actually became one huge extended family before that concept was even cool! I grew my friend Jenny and her sisters..her grandparents became my grandparents. We spent summers working their families fields and playing together. We attended each other functions and such. This was a strange but good thing since I was an only child.
Well by the time High School was coming to an end ( our senior ) year things had started changing. Jenny grandfather had pasted that summer ( I think it was ) and I had switch to a private school. I was no longer around things so familiar - which turn out to be better for me. The my father became ill - we found out he came cancer in Oct. and buried him in June....just after my gradutation. I stayed home and did not go to my dream school. I do not regret staying home because I became best friends with my mother. Five years later my mother became ill.....we found out she too had cancer in Janurary and I buried here in July. My life continued to fall apart from there....I separted from my first love and wife. Thinking I have no more family left I started my downard spirial!! I proceed to disappear....I begain to party and distroy myself for years because I was so hurt and lost.But not know that my family across the street was trying to watch over me. After I dispeared they tried to find me to let me know that my other family was here for me.
After I few years of being fucked up I decided I had enough and started over.....so here I am!
Over the years I had gotten used to the idea that I was last of my family. But what i've learned is that family not just blood that runs in your vains but who you keep dearest in you heart. After thinking I was alone for so long it is almost over welming to think that I really wasn't. My other family was worried and trying to find me.
I have always know that someone out there was still there for me but never knew who it was or would I meet up with them again...
Faith........