grae

I'm sorry I don't reply to your journals.
I'm sorry I feel I don't have the time.
I do have the time.
I just want you to read this..

My mother just told me when she was 17 (3 years before I was born) she got prengant by my father, and he made her have an abortion. He didn't even take her to have it done, my father's father had to do it. After that she ran away to London (at the other end of the country) for 6 months. Then when she was 19 she fell pregnant with me, and my dad wanted her to get another abortion, but she refused, and he threatened to leave, he came back though.

He also told her he would always find better than her, a rich girl and he would never have to work again. If they went out with friend sont he same night as each other he always said to her "If you see me, don't speak to me, I don't want to be associated with you"

After I was born he got another woman pregnant, 5 weeks after seeing her. And he was okay with it. But he took her to get an abortion.

To think my father's selfish womanising ways almost meant his only son would never be born.
The next time he says to me he is proud of me I am going to be thinking "and you almost had no son at all.

My father owns two houses
Plays golf with pros and millionaires
Goes to America once or twice a year for a leisure trip
He lived there for 2 years once
He's never taken me, but he took his ex wif'e's daughter
Never supported me fully
Lives 5 hours away
Has never put a pair of shoes on my feet
Has never bought me shoes at all
Has never contributed to my education
The last time I spoke to him I explained to him my life plan, everything from education, to getting a job, and getting married, to having kids. He seemed so pissed off that I was in charge of my own life and i planned it so much better than he did.

I hope I never end up like my father.
I have so much hate for him now.
At least I know I'll get his houses...