gothikai

my art room is ready. i painted 2 pictures last night, but i need more colors of paint. i only had blue, pink, & purple. i feel lonely & confused today. if i had some black paint, i would paint another picture to express my feelings. maybe i'll get to go to WM later & get some. as of now, i almost wish i could...
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ode to kagome

a darkened room
a single violet candle burns
odorless
this crowded room
a crib, a bed, a changing table
arranged
a warm blue pool
2 rapidly changing lives inside
amazed
this tiny pool
it tries to comfort these labor pains
intense
a bowl of pot
lies there on the floor for me
waiting
bright green pot
i hit it when i need...
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my current 2007 resolutions:

*quit smoking
*clean/organize my home (one room at a time)
*convert storage room into ARR (art release room)
*resolve things w/ gabriel
*visit people i care about more often
*take an art class at UA
*start a savings fund for moving to the beach & plastic surgeries
*try to get along better w/ mom
*write at least 3 new poems
*be...
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i hung out with my friend mike last night. always fun. too much drama, tho.
i got up early today to get my new cd player...then i got sick in circuit city.
the stomach virus continues.
my dad spent $180 on my new cd player + installation kit. wow.
i'll get it installed later. i was too sick to hang around today.
trey came over,...
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xmas adam was cool. yeah that's 2 days before xmas. i spent the day taking katana to ryan's parents' houses & she got a lot of presents & had a lot of fun. it was nice to see ryan's mom for me, too, because she is one of the nicest & sweetest people i've ever had the pleasure of knowing. then i dropped katana off...
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updates:

trey sprayed my home for roaches & other bugs + he put out baits.
i'm getting a new cd player the day after xmas thanks to my rents.
kagome said her 1st word yesterday & today she rolled over both ways.
katana has grown 3 inches & 4 lbs. in the last 6 months.
my parents are still together, still happy, still healthy.
my...
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las cucarachas enojadas

it has been a busy month so far & i'm glad that it's almost over. i've been xmas shopping 3+ times, had a couple of dr's appointments (one of which i actually kept), went out to eat a few times (thanks to armin), got lots of new goodies, enjoyed a few parties, paid all my bills, went bowling, & hung out with...
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it seems like i've been pretty busy lately. i can barely find time to get online these days. i guess it's a typical december. i've been thinking back on this year as it is drawing to a close...

january - wedding with gabriel
february - still pregnant
march - still pregnant
april - 1 yr. marriage anniversary with gabriel
may - katana turned 2
june...
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xmas shopping
finished up xmas shopping today. i ended up spending way more on the kids than i really could afford to, but i'll manage. i can't wait to see them enjoying the toys that i bought for them. my brother brought me a little xmas tree tonight. katana loves it already with nothing on it, but we will decorate it tomorrow. i'm calling it...
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i made pina coladas last night & got drunk. well, not too drunk, but i got a nice buzz that put me to sleep. i hope armin isn't mad that i used some of the rum he bought already.

i woke up today on the wrong side of the bed or something. i've been in a shitty mood. i got all pissed off about a...
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