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The wake was weird because Uncle Bobby was too skinny, wearing too much make-up, & had on some strange dark-tinted glasses that I never saw him wore while he was alive...

Gabriel quit his job at Bullets. Fuck yeah. I'm glad. I don't know what the fuck he was thinking in the first place.

My brother (supersweet) has offerred to help Gabe get a job...
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Zero Station

Gabriel insists that he isn't now nor has he ever cheated on me. So, I'm going to assume that's true for now. I do love him & I need his support.

He's working 2 jobs now, though, I don't know for how long. Yesterday was his first day & I didn't like it much that I was without him all day & night....
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When the thought enters your head about getting pregnant (or getting your significant other pregnant), here's a few things you should consider about the 3rd trimester of pregnancy (take it from someone who knows firsthand as I have or am currently personally sufferring each & every one of these annoyances!):

*stress, anxiety, depression (due to hormones)
*heartburn & indigestion (especially at night or anytime lying...
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Today is my Dad's birthday. He's 52. As much as I would love to wish him a Happy Birthday & give him those fishing lures I bought him, I know that it won't make his day happy today. Unfortunately, my dad's brother-in-law & close personal friend, my Uncle Bobby, died this morning. It was only a couple months ago he was helping my dad put...
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So far so good today. Katana ate all her breakfast (scrambled egg). I'm done cleaning for the most part already. Gabriel's gone to work & might be starting a 2nd job tomorrow. And I might take Katana to visit Ryan's mom this afternoon...if I can get a car.

I had strange dreams last night about two guys from my past. One dream was about Ryan....
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I have been feeling so paranoid lately. Every day & night I wonder if I will go into labor. If I were to go into labor before July 31st, I wouldn't be full term. That would be absolutely dreadful because the baby would have to go to he NICU & I would end up having to go home without her. So, worrying seems reasonable.

I...
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Gabriel returned the money he borrowed.
...and to all a good night.

I awoke this morning to the sound of my husband stealing money from my savings jar. I would say OUR savings jar, but I'm the only one who has put anything in it & every time I turn around he's taking money out.

Yeah he's helping pay the bills & helping buy groceries, but so am I & I still find a way to save...
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Just another day full of dishes, diapers, dinners, doing clothes, etc.

I can't wait to move to the beach! But of course, I have to wait.

I wish Gabriel would tell me I'm pretty without me asking, just once!

I'm so ready to push this baby out...I hope I can do it without drugs.

Katana's vocabulary grows more each day! Today she said "I'm done...
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