gothikai

i got up early today & took katana on an easter egg hunt. it was a quickie, but she had a lot of fun & then we played on the swings for a while. i dropped her off at mom's & went home & took a nap. so much for straightening out my sleep pattern. oh well. after i woke up, michael & i spent the rest of the night & half the morning cleaning out my "storage" room & the 2 big closets in my bedroom. i was exhausted! i smoked like 6 cigarettes & ate a cheeseburger. then, we watched 2 episodes of bam's unholy union & the most recent episode of survivor fiji. it's now 4:40am & i am still pretty much wide awake, but the kids are asleep, so i'm blogging & responding to my messages before i hit the bed. i'll probably fall asleep around 6 or 7am as usual (lately).

ps: the whole thing with me & xxx is still crazy. i don't want to put him in prison or anything. i just want him to stop hurting me. he says it's unintentional & professes his undying love for me (still), so it's strange. i still love him, too, (don't know why, but i do)...so this is all hard for me. i guess a split up after almost 3 years with someone that you've had a child with is always hard, though.

ps: pic is of me & my friend shannon