i fucking hate money
decent day: did some chores, remembered to eat, went to WM & had to spend $ on food because we were out of some important stuff, bought the kids a couple toys, too, came home & picked up the kids from mom's, more chores.
shitty night: gabe showed up & took out the trash & fed kagome while i washed dishes...but we spent the whole time arguing over money. he wanted more out of our tax money & i wanted to give it to my dad (because we owe it to him for several reasons) & because i was afraid gabe would squander it on guitar stuff like he did with all the other money from the tax refund that i gave him. yes, i know he earned it by working, but we also got it because of me & the kids & the donations to charity i made & especially for us claiming ourselves & not letting my parents claim us (just one reason we owe my dad). i put my foot down & told him i wasn't giving him anymore money. i also told him that i would be expecting child support & didn't want him helping pay the bills here. i don't know if i did the right thing or not & only time will tell. but when he left, he said he hated me. it hurt.
after he got home, we talked on the phone. we were rational. i agreed to give him the $500 & in exchange i will keep the couch, table, tv, fan, etc. i am cancelling my appointment for my cd player & tattoo. i still have to get my car door fixed. gabe agreed to make payments to my dad. he also agreed to legal child support. and he said that he would still help out with bills when he could afford to. i hope i made the right decision.
decent day: did some chores, remembered to eat, went to WM & had to spend $ on food because we were out of some important stuff, bought the kids a couple toys, too, came home & picked up the kids from mom's, more chores.
shitty night: gabe showed up & took out the trash & fed kagome while i washed dishes...but we spent the whole time arguing over money. he wanted more out of our tax money & i wanted to give it to my dad (because we owe it to him for several reasons) & because i was afraid gabe would squander it on guitar stuff like he did with all the other money from the tax refund that i gave him. yes, i know he earned it by working, but we also got it because of me & the kids & the donations to charity i made & especially for us claiming ourselves & not letting my parents claim us (just one reason we owe my dad). i put my foot down & told him i wasn't giving him anymore money. i also told him that i would be expecting child support & didn't want him helping pay the bills here. i don't know if i did the right thing or not & only time will tell. but when he left, he said he hated me. it hurt.
after he got home, we talked on the phone. we were rational. i agreed to give him the $500 & in exchange i will keep the couch, table, tv, fan, etc. i am cancelling my appointment for my cd player & tattoo. i still have to get my car door fixed. gabe agreed to make payments to my dad. he also agreed to legal child support. and he said that he would still help out with bills when he could afford to. i hope i made the right decision.
Fuck money.
And something nice:
*hug* &