gothikai

today has been interesting. i woke up around 9am when my food stamp case worker called. she said that i'll be receiving my appointment in the mail soon. i hope it goes through fast!

i went back to sleep for a couple hours, but by 11am kagome was kicking me & trying to pull my lips off (her little way of saying wake up). so i got up & changed diapers & cleaned my room, katana's room, the living room, & the kitchen as usual.

gabriel & i got into a fight. i've been feeling so weird lately. like sometimes i really want to give us a try & sometimes i think i can't let go of things he's done in the past enough to ever trust him again...and when i start thinking that way, all i can think to do is to split up. he won't go w/o a fight, though, & i always give in eventually. that's why we're still together after 2.5 years. i feel bad, too, about trying to break things off with him because i know he's been trying hard to be a better husband. so, i'm going to continue giving him this chance. i do still have some love for the guy.

gabriel went back to work at pizza hut tonight, ballsy of him, i think. but, while he was working he got a job offer from a different pizza place & i believe he's going to start working there tomorrow. i guess it pays a little bit more & the owner seems like a cool guy according to gabe.

i went to sears today to pick up kagome's pictures. they are so cute. i'll scan & post one later (too tired at the moment to go fetch them from the car). while i was at sears, i decided to use my new credit card one more time to finally buy the double stroller i'd been eyeballing ever since kagome was born. when i took her to get her picture made (like 2 weeks ago), i grabbed the last price tag for the stroller & kept it in my purse. the price was like $160, but when i went in to buy it today, it was on clearance. i actually bought the very last one, the display model, thanks to my ingenius idea of carrying that tag around with me for 2 weeks in my purse. so it only ended up costing me $100. what a steal! it's cute, too.

now i have got 2 extra single strollers, 2 extra changing tables, 2 or 3 extra baby bathtubs, & a few more items that i need to sell before we move (if we move). i guess i'll put an ad in our local shoppers guide & if that doesn't work, then i'll try the tuscaloosa news. or if anyone reading this needs any of the above mentioned items or anything else baby/maternity related, just send me a message & maybe we can work something out.

the money situation hasn't changed much; however, we called the irs hotline today & found out that our big refund should be in the bank tomorrow or the next day. so, i will use part of it to go ahead & pay off the stuff i bought on credit, & part to get my cd player installed, & part to get my new pink razr cell phone. a lot of it will go into savings towards a move. i'm still torn between new orleans & the beach, but i guess it will all be decided at some point.

i took the kids to the park today after we went to sears & i stayed close to kagome (in her stroller) while also chasing katana around to make sure she didn't get hurt or scared. she loved the slides & the swings. we didn't stay too long because i was worn out after a while. so, i dropped katana off with my dad when i got back to gordo & then came home & did dishes & washed clothes. i also hung up all gabriel's clothes for him because i decided he was never going to get around to it. i didn't mind, though. i like doing stuff like that.

sorry for the long-ass blog about boring shit, but i took a lortab earlier when my stomach started hurting & i think it's affecting me more than usual because it has been so long since i've had one. anywho, it's like 7:20pm now & i think i'm going to lie in my bed with kagome & watch tv until we doze off.