for fuck's sake...today has sucked donkey balls.
*my food stamps have been revoked (not really my fault, but the review was sent in a few days too late) i feel i must mention that i sent in the form, but is was too early, so they sent it back to me & when i sent it back again, it was too late...wtf. now we have to reapply from square one.
*the bills are piling the fuck up. i've got car insurance (170$), columbia house (14$), child support recepient annual fee (25$), & trash (12$) so far. the phone/satellite/internet bill will be coming soon. i estimate it around 150$ (maybe more). then there's the cell phone bill (45$) & the power bill (aroundish 220$). so fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
meanwhile, no sign of the child support that was supposed to come in february & gabriel has pretty much quit his job now since being shot at + we have to pay to replace the back windshield of the jimmy.
i know all that sounds bad, but throw in the $50-100 a month we spend on medications + money for diapers, detergent, & whatever else we end up needing (at least another 100 bones, we are in over our heads! we don't even have to pay rent & we are still struggling. all this & we're thinking about moving....moving....moving.
just let that sink in. we'd have all the bills we have now + rent. i am feeling totally discouraged right now about everything. i need some kind of pick me up, but i don't know what to turn to. i've been chainsmoking lately. i'm going through a pack a day now. i know that is so sad. a few weeks ago i had quit & i let the stress get to me again. whew...
okay, i've vented SOME of my problems. i feel a LITTLE bit better. at least i have greats kids & a nice warm place to live & the comfiest bed in the world that smells like heaven incarnate.
besides, everything will work out. it always does. remind me to call the child support people & complain about september & february!!
ps: if anyone wants to throw $100 bones my way i could get my cd player (that i got for xmas) installed. or if anyone wants to throw $200 my way, i could get my cd player installed & get my new cell phone....ahh but these are just wants & not needs, so i wait...i wait.
*my food stamps have been revoked (not really my fault, but the review was sent in a few days too late) i feel i must mention that i sent in the form, but is was too early, so they sent it back to me & when i sent it back again, it was too late...wtf. now we have to reapply from square one.
*the bills are piling the fuck up. i've got car insurance (170$), columbia house (14$), child support recepient annual fee (25$), & trash (12$) so far. the phone/satellite/internet bill will be coming soon. i estimate it around 150$ (maybe more). then there's the cell phone bill (45$) & the power bill (aroundish 220$). so fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
meanwhile, no sign of the child support that was supposed to come in february & gabriel has pretty much quit his job now since being shot at + we have to pay to replace the back windshield of the jimmy.
i know all that sounds bad, but throw in the $50-100 a month we spend on medications + money for diapers, detergent, & whatever else we end up needing (at least another 100 bones, we are in over our heads! we don't even have to pay rent & we are still struggling. all this & we're thinking about moving....moving....moving.
just let that sink in. we'd have all the bills we have now + rent. i am feeling totally discouraged right now about everything. i need some kind of pick me up, but i don't know what to turn to. i've been chainsmoking lately. i'm going through a pack a day now. i know that is so sad. a few weeks ago i had quit & i let the stress get to me again. whew...
okay, i've vented SOME of my problems. i feel a LITTLE bit better. at least i have greats kids & a nice warm place to live & the comfiest bed in the world that smells like heaven incarnate.
besides, everything will work out. it always does. remind me to call the child support people & complain about september & february!!
ps: if anyone wants to throw $100 bones my way i could get my cd player (that i got for xmas) installed. or if anyone wants to throw $200 my way, i could get my cd player installed & get my new cell phone....ahh but these are just wants & not needs, so i wait...i wait.
I feel you on the bills, and I have to pay some of that same stuff, and rent and 400 on my credit card.
He got shoot at? When did that happen? Where did he work?
But the good thing about moving is that the places you want to go to are pretty big and I'm sure you would be abele to find a lot better jobs.
I'm sorry, I hope you can quit smoking.
I wish I had the money to give you.
This pic is beautiful - I like the roses and the moon...