sometimes i get so confused. maybe my bipolar disorder is to blame...or maybe it's my OCD...or maybe it's my newest affliction, which is actually my oldest (i just never knew it until today), GAD (generalized anxiety disorder). it seems they have a name for it, folks...that constant worrying, those nagging thoughts, the ones that cause my stomach to churn on more days than not. so now i just need to decide whether to ask for xanax, klonopin, or valium. any suggestions?
saturday...long story-short version: hung out with nikki, josh, & justin...drank too much & ended up puking all night...had a long talk with gabriel (but don't remember much of it)
sunday...long story-short version: gabriel "puts his foot down" & moves back in during my incoherant/hungover phase...he also declares us back together & i'm in no mood to argue
monday-wednesday...long story-short version: gabriel agrees to move back out & that we are not back together, so we start getting along a little better...we also make a pact that involves me quitting alcohol/drugs/cigarettes & him quitting everything, too + marriage/family counseling & bipolar meds for both of us...i call this the "clearing our heads" phase
so, now it's wednesday night & gabriel just left. he's headed to hang out with a friend & give me some space (since he's been around for 5 days straight).
in other news, i am happy to announce that i've been reaquainted with an oldish friend, joslyn, & i might get to be present for her soon upcoming baby's birth + be a bridesmaid in her march wedding. yay!
saturday...long story-short version: hung out with nikki, josh, & justin...drank too much & ended up puking all night...had a long talk with gabriel (but don't remember much of it)
sunday...long story-short version: gabriel "puts his foot down" & moves back in during my incoherant/hungover phase...he also declares us back together & i'm in no mood to argue
monday-wednesday...long story-short version: gabriel agrees to move back out & that we are not back together, so we start getting along a little better...we also make a pact that involves me quitting alcohol/drugs/cigarettes & him quitting everything, too + marriage/family counseling & bipolar meds for both of us...i call this the "clearing our heads" phase
so, now it's wednesday night & gabriel just left. he's headed to hang out with a friend & give me some space (since he's been around for 5 days straight).
in other news, i am happy to announce that i've been reaquainted with an oldish friend, joslyn, & i might get to be present for her soon upcoming baby's birth + be a bridesmaid in her march wedding. yay!
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Some times you just need to get drunk and puke up your guts out, it just seems to get shit out of you.
I hope all of that stuff works out with you and Gabriel, I hope getting him to quit everything makes things better.
How did you find your friend again?