gothikai

i gave kagome her 1st bottle from mommy on tuesday & by wednesday she was holding her own bottle! she never ceases to amaze me. i am sooooo proud.

katana is absolutely gorgeous & very smart to boot, too. i really couldn't ask for better kids.

now if i could only figure out whether or not i'm supposed to be with gabriel or not, i would really feel great. i'm considering a trial run with him...letting him move back in for a month to see how things go. at the end of said month, i would decide whether or not our communication, trust, & love had improved enough to stay together or not. is this a crazy idea?

i had strange dreams last night. i was at a party & my dad was there, too, to make sure i didn't do any drugs. for some reason i was desperate to hook up with someone there, anyone, but the first guy i was interested in was torn between me & some other girl. so i left him & i saw ryan. then i spent most of the dream trying to convince ryan to give me another chance (reminds me of old dreams) & finally i gave up on ryan & went back to the party, only to realize i was naked & some guy was wearing my clothes. then i woke up. don't ask me. any takers on analyzing?