gothikai

My mood today is strange. I feel some cross between tired/pissy/depressed/bored & anxious for the baby to come out. Katana's every move seems to irritate me today. I guess it didn't help that I had trouble sleeping last night again, despite the sleeping pills & then I was awakened to Katana needing so many things (as always). I had to crawl out of bed in an exhausted state & change a soaking wet diaper, pull the sheet & blanket & mattress pad off her bed (as they were soaked as well), put them in the wash, move clothes to the dryer, cook her breakfast, make my bed, vacuum the living room rug (due to cookies) for the 3rd time in 2 days, & all before I brushed my teeth. There's no one I can call right now for a babysitter because my only babysitter (mom) is at work. I keep thinking that I want the baby out of my body, but deep down I know that once she comes out my work-load is more than doubled. How am I ever going to manage? I'm sure I'll find a way, but right now everything is seeming a bit impossible.

I got online to try & relax & get my mind off things, only to be annoyed by every person who tried to chat with me on yahoo messenger. I ended up deleting 3 friends from my list & clicking ignore on them. Maybe I need a bath or something, but then again, that wouldn't do any good if Katana is constantly trying to get in with me. And no, I can't just put her down for a nap or something. She only naps when she feels like it. Frustration...

Tomorrow I have several things to do. I have an appointment to get a deep tissue massage from a salon/spa at 4:30pm & I really hope it relaxes me in the way that I need it to. Before my appointment I have to go to Publix & make use of the freebie coupons they sent me for being a member of their Baby Club & I have to go to Target to return some things & get some other things. I would really like to go by one of the photography places (Wal-Mart or K-Mart or Sears) & have some professional pictures done of me with the belly before it's gone, but I don't know if I'll actually do it or not. I need to find some online coupons I can print or something.

I really need to update my hotornot profile, so that guys won't think I want to cheat on my husband. I guess I gave off the wrong impression.

I'm so desperate for some life changing improvements that I'm considering turning to religion for fuck's sake. Anyone know of a good one? Yeah right. I'm sure there is none. Philosophy maybe...quantum physics...

End of rant.