gothikai

My Halloween got a lot worse before it got better. Gabriel did something really shitty, but I'm not going to get into it. He made amends & fixed it & I forgave him. Then he came out & we went trick-or-treating for an hour. That was followed by pizza at Mom's & then the movie Slither with Trey. It was a pretty good movie. We...
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This Halloween has gotten off to a crapass start. I had nightmares last night & then I guess I slept wrong because I woke up with a killer backache (which I still have). Plus, Kagome had quite a coughing spell this morning, so I hope she's not getting sick. Then Katana dropped my Pepsi. And Gabriel (who was supposed to go trick-or-treating with us) told...
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Last week I enjoyed a lovely manic phase of my bipolar disorder...Unfortunately, it didn't last long & I have already crashed (about 3 days ago). Now I'm crying over sentimental baby dolls & isolating myself from friends. It's strange how quickly things can change, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse.

I have officially given up on getting back together with Gabriel. I think...
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Ryan wanted to come pick up Katana today. The thought of that disturbed me. I don't know why or what I'm afraid of, but I didn't let him. That's not really true.

I guess I'm afraid that his apartment is unclean & there is no food, maybe drugs everywhere....who knows? He won't let me come see the place, so I have no clue what it's...
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Watched the movie Saw III last night with Trey. We missed the first death scene because we were running late & I had to pee. The aftermath looked pretty gory & the rest of the movie certainly was gory & disturbing. And the end was begging for a sequel. I liked it & had a hard time getting it out of my head at bedtime...
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The fair might be out of the question for tonight. I think it will rain. Plus, the more I think about it, it would probably be more work than it would be worth because of Katana's young age. There wouldn't be much she could do. Therefore, I'm trying to think of something else for Trey & I to do tonight & hoping my mom will...
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Yep, got a baby attached to my boob & still blogging. I'm like the Energizer Blogger Bunny or something along those lines.

Let's see, what's new?

Ryan came to see Katana yesterday. I took a few pix. He pissed me off, though, because he wouldn't give me his apartment number for child support. His reason? Apparently, he's afraid I'm going to show up at his...
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Damn Nip/Tuck...how I love & hate that show. I mostly LOVE it, but after it goes off I have 2 problems.

#1: I'm longing for more...wanting/needing to know what is going to happen next!

#2: I'm looking at myself thinking...damn. I need to have these stretch marks removed by lasers, a nice tummy tuck to tighten up my midsection again, some new bigger & non-sagging...
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My mom agreed to keep Kagome for a short while last night, so I headed out to town. No one answered their phones at first, so I went by Walgreens & picked up my newest pix of the kids. Then I stopped by Pizza Hut to see Gabe & he bought me some cheesesticks & gave me a lil' money. Thanks Gabe. Then I got...
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Plans are pretty much ruined for tonight. My money is in the bank, so I can't get to it to get my tattoo...and Gabe's mom is sick, so no babysitting for her. I don't really trust anyone else to do it yet either because I know Kagome cries a lot when I'm not around. She doesn't like formula at all. Well, I do trust my...
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Well, it's done! Bankruptcy has been filed & I can finally answer those pesky phone calls & tell them to leave me the hell alone & call my lawyer. Yesss!

I tried to get a little tattoo yesterday (a HIM razorblade on my wrist), but the tattoo artist (Chris) was too busy. So, I'm planning on having it done Saturday night. Woohoo! I remember the...
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Well, it's done! Bankruptcy has been filed & I can finally answer those pesky phone calls & tell them to leave me the hell alone & call my lawyer. Yesss!

I tried to get a little tattoo yesterday (a HIM razorblade on my wrist), but the tattoo artist (Chris) was too busy. So, I'm planning on having it done Saturday night. Woohoo! I remember the...
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