gothicwolf

well, what a boring week. on thursday we stopped working so that we could all watch the football with our boss. we where on late shift (2-10) this week so i managed to get some decent sleep in. i rang my credit card company this morning to find out my balance and i'm over my limit .more money to spend then. luckinly i don't have to spend alot of money on my car when i get paid as i've paid enough this month.

i've realised over the last few days that i'm really kmissing my ex. i bumped into her on tuesday when my car was getting fixed and she just didn't want ot know when i asked how my daughter is. then when i took my car to my friend again on wednesday i went to my old local for a drink while my car was being fixed and i saw my ex with my daughter. katie (my daughter) is getting so big know. she's just over 9 months old and she is out of a pram and into a pushchair. i didn't go and say anything as her parents where there and i didn't feel like getting into a big argument with them. i really want to see my daughter. it's starting to get to much for me. i just want to move away all together and start a fresh.

i'm also getting lonely since i saw her cause i remember how it used to be with her. cause she only worked at my old local pub at night time, when i came home she was nearly always there to great me. and when i left, she would always give me a hug and kiss and it would take ages to actually get away, ad i loved that. also i'm missing sleeping next to someone. just having my arm around her at night was enough. and when she used to just lye with me looking at each other. i still love her beyond belief, even though it has been a year and a half since we broke up. i won't find another person like her again, een if she was a bit childish at heart. but that's another thing about her i loved. why can't i just get over her and live my life properly.

anyway, i hope you lot are finding love.
love you all