gothicwolf

well, went back to work yesterday after having a brilliant bank holiday weekend. god, my work just depresses me fucking no end. soz for all the swearing i'm going to be doing, need to let of steam. my work place is just full of small minded twats that can't let someone be who they are.
then, when trying to get to sleep last night, all i could of was my daughter katie. i've seen her 1 since she was born 7 month's ago cause my ex won't let me. i've been really good trying to get on with things but sometimes i can't help but think that i'm going to miss out on things in her life, like when she will take her first steps, her first birthday. i've already missed her first christmas. i just want to move away from this area. there are to many people i don't want to see and i'm fed up working at a shit place where people are only there cause they pay well.
i mean all i do at the moment is stay indoors and do nothing till the weekend and then i only go out at night to go to a club or something. i only see my best mate once in a while cause he has his salon to look after and when we go out it is probably to a gay pub/club in london or bedford which is alright but i can't do it every week.
this is the only place that cheers me up at the moment. there are so many cool people that don't seem to judge you for a few little mistakes, or looking different some times.
hopefully tonight will cheer me up as i'm forcing myself to go out. i think i'm stuck in a rut and need to get out of it.
nice to see people had a good weekend like i did.

anyway, hopes you peeps are good. loves ya all