goth_cowboy

I want to apologize for not writing as much as I usally do. I've been so busy having my mind molded into tomorrow's future victim, and having the capacity of my brain tested several times. oh and school has kept me busy too.

it's been a weird week. i've had maybe 15 hours of sleep in the last 5 days. I guess i'm turning in...
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i'm sorry i'm not actually writing for this one but this song fits my mood right now.


The Worst Day Since Yesterday
By Flogging Molly

Well I know,
I miss more then I hit,
with a face,
that was launched to sink,
and I seldom feel the bright relief,
It's been the worst day since yesterday,
If there's one thing I have said,
is that...
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Damn last night was boring. my lady wasn't around and i got stuck watching the damn yankees beat boston. damn i miss her. i don't think i have ever felt like this towards anybody before. fuckin' weird . i guess i just have to go with it.

for a change i actually had a good time last night. got sloshed and partied. it was great. missed class this moring but i really didn't care. got tomorrow off and i'm not doing a god damn thing. one of my roommates moved out taking his stereo, tv and dvd player so all i got for entertainment is my computer. oh well, don't need them...
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it seems that i always have something shitty to complain about. well i hate to break it to you all, but today is no different.

today started out with me waking in the apartment of a girl i truly adore. she is my height, medium length blond hair, loves all the same shit i do, and just all around great to be around. she just...
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Awake
by Godsmack

Yea!!!!!!!!!

Wait another minute
Can't you see what this pain
Has fucking done to me

I'm alive and still kicking
What you see I can't see
And maybe
You'll think before you speak

I'm alive For you
I'm awake Because of you
I'm alive I told you
I'm awake Swallowing you

Take another second
Turn your back on me
And make believe...
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well, here it comes the end of the week. and what a boring week it was. nothing but classes and drinking. last night about ended in a fight with someone that probably could kick my ass. know i get to drive home for the weekend. oh joy. i was played like a puppet for the sake of trying to be nice to women. of course...
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Darkness
Imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell
End of passion play, crumbling away
I'm your source of self-destruction
Veins that pump with fear,
sucking darkest clear
Feeding on your deaths' construction

excerpts from One and Master of Puppets

llmll llmll

My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch, the less I feel
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore

llmll llmll

well, i had my national guard drill this weekend. got to go trapsing around the wooods in full battle gear. it kicked ass. my current just broke up with her boyfriend this week . the world seems to be a little bit brighter.oh and the CUBS WON!!!!


later
llmll llmll

well here is the recap of the week. i'm passing all of my classes. i got four new cd, 2 Mudvaynes, 1 Coal Chamber, and the newest System of a Down. They all kick some serious ass. wanted to relax this weekend, but got ARNG drills so no rest for the wicked. Met two beautiful girls who used live in montana but now lives in...
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Wanna love ya,
Wanna bug ya,
Wanna squeeze ya,
Stupid girl,

Wanna touch ya,
Wanna take ya,
Wanna shaunt ya,
Stupid girl,

I cant take this, born to break this,

Shes going away, (she's going away)
Whats wrong with my life today,
Shes going away, (she's going away)
Whats wrong with my life today,

Stupid Girl,
Stupid Girl,

Im a loner,
Im a loser,
Im...
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