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HOLY SHIT!!! I jumped when your new profile pic popped up LOL.

Is that from the new set?

Hey Sadie,that new profile pic is your best yet...you look fucking insane !!!!!!

I take it you like what I wrote Miss Sadie?

Problem is there are a few cool people on here......but just like in the real world,the assholes are taking over.
The rebels have become the conformists that they rebel against in the first place.............I'm 43 fucking years old,I have my own mind and opinions,I don't have tattoos because I want to click with other tattooed people,they can blow me.Either you're cool or your not,and most of the people on this site are not as cool as they think they are.......Ya know,a new members joins,and everyone on here takes turns ranking them as their way of climbing the SG ladder of popularity................May their castles explode,and they die in the sulfer pit!

Those are some mighty fine red x's!

i cant see them either but im glad you are still there i thought i wasnt a member last night till i found out what had happened

I didn't know it was easter around that time really. i was so lost i had no idea of the time. I just woke up and someone wished me a happy easter when i got home. It was weird. As for all the bs on this site. Yeah you have to sit and wonder some times what is real and what is true. I eventually gave up and just went with the flow cause it seemed funnier in some cases.

Can anyone see pics now???I changed my page...Still some pics up tho...and if you do NOT see em...I am DEFINATELY going to hit something...HARD!

I will DIE for anyone who can tell me WHAT THE FUCK IS UP!??! and if anyone says "Go look in the FAQ's" THEY...Will be the ones to DIE!

I can run a fuckin' thoudand seat thetres board...BUT I CANNOT POST ANY PICS ANYMORE????

*sigh* THIS is going to make the COFFIN JOE set REALLY difficult!

SS

[Edited on Mar 28, 2005 3:19PM]

Yes, I'm going to try and be there for sure, unless I get kidnapped, I'll be in for a gab. Um, as for the Taa fodder thing, I'm not entirely sure what I'm meant to say, I'll take a guess and assume your joking.? Did she ask you or something,I'm not one for judgements on people I don't know.

Let me know when your getting started with burning and such and fire any questions my way. BTW that's quite a list of new films your getting.Some great choices. Lemora is in my top 5 favourite horror films of all time. It's haunting, unique, scary, weird and amazing.
Hope your doing well.

Happy Easter!

Hey Sadie, I enjoyed the chat last night, sorry I was'nt more active on it but read my journal and you'll understand.

I hope you doing good my gorewhore. Loathe you

Thanks so much for the birthday wishes! That's like the best birthday card ever.

all it took was me pushing the back button... do you remember when you asked it i had any apothecary worthy emo poetry, etc...
well... i wanted to share this with you, Dark Misstress.... Let me know what you think....

i'm sorry
wait --- maybe i shouldn't apologize
these contradictory notions
mix togehter in my mind
at times like these i look into the mirror
and see a strangers eyes
all the old fears flow to the surface
and i feel so small inside
it's not because of you that i am this way
lost
searching
for grace
i wanted to tell you what i was
afraid of
when i reached out to touch
your face
but the words wouldn't come
they were stilll locked away
so i decided to try and tell you here
?maybe it would be easier this way?

i am afraid of the memories that invade
my sleep
that haunt my dreams
and make me awake
the ones where i am dead before i drown
but can still feel the water
weighing me down
where i feel a mans hands close
around my throat
and my consiousness fades like dissapating smoke,
only to awake and feel my knife,
screams muffled to silence, nothing in the night
he told me he'd cut me to pieces
while i was still alive
dissolve my fingerprints, cut off my hands
he wanted me to feel it before i died
he used to drive by the canal
playing on my greatest fear
whisper and yell that i was nothing
laugh at my tears
he told me he'd dump all the pieces
of what had once been me
into the water
in the deepof the night - food for the fish to eat
there'd be no evidence, i'd never be found
people like ME dissappeared all the time
and as much as i hate to admit it
what he said was true,
IF ONLY IN MY MIND
so you see it wasn't you -- i'm still broken
somewhere inside
as much as i try to exorcise
the demons -- they still exist in my life
i'm sorry --
i'm not the person that you'd
thought i'd be,
often i hide behind sex
so that people don't see the real me-
but you
you pushed
got behind the wall
pulled me into the light
well here i am, this is all.
i'm sorry.

i left this in dizntz journal.. as if he didnb't hate me enuff

Great to that u are back sadie, i kinda sorta missed ya.
People always tend to get weirded out when someone passes away. I think its a part of the human nature.
Its either about money or feelings. Sometimes its hard to notice the difference. Isnt it fun when long lost people suddenly appears at funerals. What are they after? ..

YAY!!!

I haven't been around much lately - oh school.
Glad to hear you're back - with a venegeance, it sounds like. I shall be quivering with antici


pation.
Ha.




Okay, I need to go to bed!...

Many thanks for the advice on the ear lobes! Don't think its anything to worry about, I just bleed a lot. I always did.

Can't say I ever went to the Guantlet. I've heard of it, but never went there. I went to New York Adorned at the advice of a few coworkers and some local folks from SG. I do have to say its a top notch place, with really great people working there. I was very impressed.

As for the piercing, I had existing holes (I'm guessing they were at a 14g because I was able to fit a 14g barbell in them a couple months back). I'm not a fan at all of dermal punches for earlobes, and I'm very patient when it comes to this sort of thing to get to the size I would like.

I had mentioned to the piercer that I would like to eventually go to about 4g (don't want anything too huge). She suggested to re-pierce them to 8g. She suggested going that large is because she said by re-piercing the existing holes it would avoid scar tissue forming when they heal. That way if I decided to take them out a few years down the road, over time they would shrink up.

I trust professionals, and she did a great job.

As for aftercare I was given the following instructions.

-- Gently rinse them in the morning and evening with this mosturizing solution they gave me.

-- If it bleeds, leave it be and just let it clot up. The reason, as per the piercer, is your body is trying to heal the wound and you trying to clean off the blood is stoping the healing process.

-- DON'T TOUCH THE PIERCINGS!

After few days they're doing pretty good. A tad bit sore and a little swollen, nothing unbearable, which is to be expected. Again the piercer I saw comes highly recomended so I trust her advice.

Anywho ...

You to give me the details on that monthly chat room meet and greet!

ooga-booga to you!