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GRISTLE & GREETINGS BOILS & GHOULS....
...Yeah, Yeah...I am FINALLY Updating...I must Apologize to anyone that was actually Interested...I usually don't have much to say if it doesnt Include Horror, Egyptology, Dead Bodies, Torture, or The Occult...And EVEN THEN...I do not say much...(...concerning the last 5, I am ALWAYS up to Talk Horror, DAMN! Y'all Know THAT!!)
...Oh Yeah...Another reason I changed my Entry today?? PSST...yeah SHHHH...C'Mere...Closer...A LEEEEEETle Closer...You Ready..? IT IS LilMiSsMorBiD'S DAY TODAY!!! ...HaHa! Sorry...Had To...LOVE The gal...Surprisingly enough, and to my Utter Unbelief...I actually , being forced to have to as I cannot withold anymore, to actually contiplate the whole 'Cyber-Friends" thing...
Now...ANYONE that REALLY knows me, They know that despite my Uncanny Wit, and Clever Head for How to draw Attention to Myself, By speaking In A Pretty General Manner to Many at Once...I Have ALWAYS Hid behind An Image that allowed me to Shun any REAL sense of Knowing The REAL me...Seriously...I cannot talk about this...

...As "Those Who Say...Do NOT Know, & Those Who Know...Do NOT Say..."
Enough Said...
Another thing? I can not really think of ONE person I know in here that knows EXACTLY what goes on in MY head About WHAT and WHO I am at Liberty to Discuss about my Attraction to Anyone...I mean, Sure Alot of You Know that I am In A Relationship...But Have I really Said anything about it? Or Why I am NOT actively Pusueing To Go Pink...THAT's A Question I Hear ALOT...I realize That By THIS Point...Y'all Are Thinkin' "CHRIST!!! Is This Chick EVER Self-Centered!!!"
I really am not, Actually...Just Salf Aware...I AM A Hedonist...C'Mon...You MUST have Gathered THAT much...I just happen to care about my OWN needs, Before those of any Altruistic, Otherwise, Unselfish Concerns for the very few that I actually have come to build a connection with...It's strange...I have ALWAYS thought...How Destiny and Synchronicity Collide to Fill in the Blanks of My Future MUST be A Very Funny Prank on The Fates Behalf...However, I have ALWAYS learned, gained, lost, helped, detained, etc...Myself by just allowing What is meant to Happen, Happen, with taking Advantage of the Opportunities given to me to Change the Surroundings, Elements, Variables and Circumstances I am Given to Work with...So, Thats how it Has ALWAYS been...
It has usually been Attributed (my Extroverted, Madwoman, Daring, Outgoing Treatment of My Existance...) To being a Tall, Fiery, REAL- Redheaded Leo...Because, "HEY!! THAT makes sense..." I Do Not even Know WHERE THE FUCK this Red hair comes from?!? SERIOUSLY...We did a genatic Map a few yers back...and 8 generations either side down the Family Freakshow Tree...and there is NOT A ONE Redhead...Black Hair, Pale Skin on My Fathers side, and Dark Brown, Dark eyes down My Mothers...NOT ONE REDHEAD!!
I am Not going to go into ANY Details...As there ARE some things that are just left better Accepted and Unquestioned...Like This...

...I SEE it...I KNOW What it is, I can EXPLAIN it to A certain degree...But I would Be A Fuckin' Fool to Open My Mouth, and Tell you All that .."I KNOW What is What...I Know EVERYTHING, and I Am Gonna Tell ALL OF YOU!!!"
C'Mon!!!...THAT would KILL my meter in This Piece of Putrid Poetry We call 'Existance'...There are some things That I Have NOT, Can NOT, & Will NEVER be able to speak About...I Do NOT have A flick of A Problem telling Anyone whom is Interested to know that I was A Junkie for almost 7 years, (Yes, While William S Was Alive and NOT Kicking...heheh..Other Junkies and Survivors like me KNOW how That was funny!!) But I have also been Clean as A Pot resin filled Whistle for almost 5...I really Do not drink alot...(EXCEPT for the Occasional Debauch on some Absinthe, Port Sherry, or Jagermeister...Red Wine and a Bloody Ceasar If YOUR buying...)I smoke, and YES...I also smoke...(CHRIST!! I Friggin Live Where The Best Pot in The WORLD comes from...The Doctors smoke it..They should...It's Legal here...)
Anyhow...I am not going to go any furthur with this...Because It is Turning into an Epic I REALLY Do NOT feel like having to hear Sighs Over...I LOVE My Fuckin Life...BUT, ONLY because I have made it So...That is what I am Saying, I Guess is...The ONLY person who is going to make You who You wanna be...IS YOU!!! Like me...I admit...I use my space here not only to first find similar minded individuals...But I would be Lying, and Subsequently, Insulting you All If I ALSO didn't admit to Shameless Self-Promotion...I mean C'MON!! Who The FUCK ISN'T In Here?? This is SG fer Christs Sake!!
We are supposed to just let All the SG's Get The Attention??! HELL NO!!
So... Saying That, I leave You with THIS As A Thought... If You Find Me or Anything Offensive...You can tell me...and I will say "Thank You, and Fuck What You Think...As Long as I am NOT Hurting, or what I says Hurts Anyone...Then..Leave me be...OR, Get to Know me..I am Just Here Cause Death Hasn't kept me down yet...(and after over 10 O.D's I stopped counting...But I have been Back & Forth SO MANY times...I STILL wonder WHY I have not been Allowed to STAY 'There' MUST be THEE Company Contract I signed...Something in The REALLY Fine Print...DAMN!! Read The Fine Print Kids...TRUST ME!!!)
I Just want what Everyone else wants...Except I have had Designs On 'IT' for A LOOOOONG Time...I am A Shameless, Self-Respecting, Proven & Proud , Being...And GODAMMIT!!! I am Proud...Is There ANYTHING wrong with THAT?!?
OOogaBOOoga Kiddliwinks...,SS




BTW...I also happen to have decided I am going to have a Signature Pic...Why? Because I thought A Pic Of My Frankenstein Scar down My Torso Is 'InAppropriate...Because People ACTUALLY think It Is A Bod Mod...LOL, and I like My Profile Pic TOO much...So Since Nobody looks at pics...and I am sick of describing myself in chat or something to people...HERE! This is My Dossier Pic for My Horror Flick Business...One thing LilMiSsMorBid HAS taught me...You can NEVER have enough pics of your Hot self Up in this place...It helps... Once Again Doll...HAPPY GODAMNED BIRTHDAY!!! You Give Me Hope to Haunt...

NOTICE!!! I AM STILL ALIVE!!! However....I have been having PC Problems...and I KNOW All of My Fiends out there have wonderful Journals to read and to Comment on...However...I am not only bogged, I am ALSO working on The "Sinister Sexy Sinematic Scenes" Set For The Abominable Apothecary...and I have been spending what time I have in there...I LOATHE YOU ALL!!!(heheh...) SS