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I was feeling nostalgic after being a bit depressed. So I did a search and did some digging.After getting on irc I found a friend I haven't seen in about 10 years. And after the normal refresher course type shit she remembered me. That last time we talked she was when I was around 17 and she was 14 or 15. I promised her I'd stay in touch.

After finding an old friend I've got the desire to find the other friends I had from those days but most of them are going to be hard if not impossible to track down. But at least I found one of them.

I used to be a real asshole back then. And I'm terrible with staying in touch. Which is why the one I did keep in contact with basically told me to fuck off a month or 2 ago. That really hurt since at one point we were very close. And she meant a lot to me. But I fucked up one time too many and I have no one to blame but myself.

I'm hoping that if I do find the friends I used to have that they'll be more like Matches and remember me fondly. And not like Maq who I drove out of my life or hate me for shit I did years ago like the #dominion crew.

Fuck. I'm getting old if this shit is important enough for me to type out. Especially in a rambling giddy burst of manic happiness.