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A New Year, and a chance for new Beginnings... Yet it feels like I'm stuck in a quagmire. It already seems like nothings changed, nor will it change. I lost a friend yesterday. He didn't die, but he's dead to me after what happened. I genuinly feel heart broken, it's worse to lose a friend then a love, at least in my oppinion.

Seeing as how my life is infested with E-Drama, and the loss of my friend is just the most recent aspect of that, I walked out on my clan. It sounds stupid to consider total strangers I've never met to be the extended family the RDD was, but well if your reading this chances are you can relate. It seems that I can't escape the misery except briefly. I'm starting to accept that.

Overall I'm feeling lost and depressed. But at least I've grown as a person. The old me wouldn't have just walked away peacefully. No. The old me would have flamed the living fuck out of my former friend, and erupted the clan in a civil war in the process. So there's that at least.