This is one hell of an official "first blog entry". I've really been hesitant to actually start one based on two principles: 1.) I'm far too lazy to maintain a regular update schedule and 2.) subsequently, nobody will read them.
But I'm compelled to finally at least document one event of my otherwise mundane life.
I just recently broke up with my girlfriend of 7 years. Found out that she had been essentially seeing someone else for the past two months. I really can't put my finger on what went wrong. We've been living together in Boston for a year, and frankly, things had never been better. I thought we were both happy, but evidentally, I was wrong.
She claims that she lost sight of the priorities in her life, and that it took losing me to figure this out. She tells me that she has no idea why she did what she did, and "didn't really like the guy anyway." Now she wants me back. She says things are done with him, but she's been lying to me for so long that frankly I don't know whether or not I should believe her. She'd been lying to me this whole time - I had my suspicions, but she was adamant that it was "just friends." I never once had any problems with her going out without me, and was a little concerned that this guy was calling all the time, but ultimately didn't want to harm our relationship by playing the role of the "paranoid jealous boyfriend." Maybe if I had I could have prevented this. Maybe if I had prevented it this time, it would have happened again. I'm not going to sit here and kick myself over "what ifs".
I don't know if I can forgive her. I don't know if we have a future together. Frankly, I'm terrified of the prospect of another relationship; whether it be with her or anyone else. If she was capable of doing this to me, what's to stop someone else?
All I know is that I had something that I thought was special, something that I thought was indomitable and impervious. I guess I thought wrong.
Lora & Kevin 11/99 - 10/06.
(There really are two people in the picture, I guess that this software is incapable of re-sizing or adding a scroll bar, so right-click and "view picture" if you're curious)
But I'm compelled to finally at least document one event of my otherwise mundane life.
I just recently broke up with my girlfriend of 7 years. Found out that she had been essentially seeing someone else for the past two months. I really can't put my finger on what went wrong. We've been living together in Boston for a year, and frankly, things had never been better. I thought we were both happy, but evidentally, I was wrong.
She claims that she lost sight of the priorities in her life, and that it took losing me to figure this out. She tells me that she has no idea why she did what she did, and "didn't really like the guy anyway." Now she wants me back. She says things are done with him, but she's been lying to me for so long that frankly I don't know whether or not I should believe her. She'd been lying to me this whole time - I had my suspicions, but she was adamant that it was "just friends." I never once had any problems with her going out without me, and was a little concerned that this guy was calling all the time, but ultimately didn't want to harm our relationship by playing the role of the "paranoid jealous boyfriend." Maybe if I had I could have prevented this. Maybe if I had prevented it this time, it would have happened again. I'm not going to sit here and kick myself over "what ifs".
I don't know if I can forgive her. I don't know if we have a future together. Frankly, I'm terrified of the prospect of another relationship; whether it be with her or anyone else. If she was capable of doing this to me, what's to stop someone else?
All I know is that I had something that I thought was special, something that I thought was indomitable and impervious. I guess I thought wrong.
Lora & Kevin 11/99 - 10/06.
(There really are two people in the picture, I guess that this software is incapable of re-sizing or adding a scroll bar, so right-click and "view picture" if you're curious)
Resized the pic for you:
Cheers.