gooz

Note this day in your diaries dudes, this is one of the first and maybe one the last time i'm gonna talk about myself.

Many years ago, i used to not believe in Love, that was for me nothing but weakness. Then i met a girl and i spent my 2 better years with her but after i spent my 2 worst years because of her. That experience changed my mind, i didn't think Love was a weakness anymore but i was scared and i'm still scared of Love. I don't want to feel that emotional elevator one more time.
And so i didn't have girlfriends i loved anymore, i had one with many problems in her minds, i just wanted to help her, to show her how life can be a fucking good thing. And i think i succeeded but i couldn't see that instead of getting her over it, i just changed her problems. I was her new problem.

Now i'm sick of many things... of me and what i did to her, of the pleasures of life...
I feel empty, empty of emotion... neither sadness nor happiness...
Bloody hell, i'm so fed up right now... i think... i'm gonna work and spend my time learning... i hope emotions will come back cause i don't think i could live like this forever.

Every man has his own weakness... this is mine.