goontastic

It's amazing that, despite how intuitive I am in practically every other situation, I manage to misinterpret everything the women in my life say to me. Someone needs to invent a word that describes that feeling of absolute love when it is combined with that sickeningly distressed, kinda decimated burning in the guts feeling I have right now.

Like when your grandma tells you that she loves sooooo much, but then you catch her fucking other children.