goodnightxx7841

it depresses me to look back on all my posts about the boy
and see how happy i was about it
and now realize how bad i wish it would have worked out
but he goes back to school next weekend
and it never took off
just sick of constant disappointment

also i was talking to my friend
and i told him that my mind starts spinning
if i dont jam pack my day full of people and things
and keep myself busy
and that my dreams are increasingly ridiculous
all he had to say was :

"thats cuz you're looking for someone"

wow. way to sum up my fears in one text