Actually, despite my sarcasm and my despair, tonight was a lot of fun.
I'm single again, after all.
I kissed two nice young men, and made suggestions of later dates to three. Of those three, one is potentially a good time. One is a possible dating experience. One is a nice guy who happened to be drunk and friendly but I have no interest in later. He's shorter than I am. That's unfair, I know... especially since he's kinda cool and were it not for the height issue, I might be interested. I'm so shallow.
Now the ex is giving me song lyrics for review... the old ex, not the new one. He's quite lyrical and I like his style. I'm happy that he's writing again- it means he's in a creative state which is good for him.
I am the kind of person that is usually very close to my past lovers. That's a good thing, usually. Maybe eventually I can be friends with Ray again. Right now it's too painful.
I'm glad I'm going away for most of next month. It will be good healing time for both of us.
I'm single again, after all.
I kissed two nice young men, and made suggestions of later dates to three. Of those three, one is potentially a good time. One is a possible dating experience. One is a nice guy who happened to be drunk and friendly but I have no interest in later. He's shorter than I am. That's unfair, I know... especially since he's kinda cool and were it not for the height issue, I might be interested. I'm so shallow.
Now the ex is giving me song lyrics for review... the old ex, not the new one. He's quite lyrical and I like his style. I'm happy that he's writing again- it means he's in a creative state which is good for him.
I am the kind of person that is usually very close to my past lovers. That's a good thing, usually. Maybe eventually I can be friends with Ray again. Right now it's too painful.
I'm glad I'm going away for most of next month. It will be good healing time for both of us.
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I tried to cancel the other night, but that doesn't seem to have worked...
Anyway, I can't count how many ways I've looked into apolozing for what is the most rediculous and hypocritical decision I have ever made in my life...
Whatever the case in the future, I'll always be here for you. I'm sorry things turned out this way. I never meant to hurt you, or anyone else I've ever loved... I just seem to be good at making bad decisions and not being capable of truly caring for a person. You're the first person I've loved in a long time. I won't ever forget you baby.
So anyway, because I'm not good at being serious for too long... Here's a story for you.. About 2 hours after you officially dumped me, I'm out having dinner with my daughter, and this cute chick is cleaning a table nearby and I make some off handed comment about how she missed a spot... Nothing intended, so anyway, she keeps coming back to talk to me and we bullshit while my daughter plays in this playland...
So typically, I won't even consider asking a chick for her number when I'm out with my daugther, cause I don't like feeling like my daughter is being used in any fashion... So I talk to her while she's around and that's it... So before long she asks me for my number, so I figure what the hell, she's cute, why not...
So here's the downside.. I exchange numbers with her and just to make sure (cause she looked young) I asked her age..
"I'm 17" she says....
and BAM.... it's like a hammer to the fucking skull. So the number seemed to disappear somewhere... Must have flown out my window by accident or something...
Sounds like your evening at plush was far more productive than mine... Goob for you!
Hope you have a good time this weekend.
Ray
Lead me on
On into the dimmer valleys
On into the night
I'll wait to hear your footsteps receding
Receding
Lead me on
-j's lyrics archive