"Men are smug asses," said Cynthia. "Just smuggies. They're just a big smuggy. All the ones who think they allthat suck. Cuz you got here just like i did, though your mother's vagina, so don't be thinkin you allthat, just because you got three legs and balls."

my uterus is trying to turn inside out. i ran out of medicine for it and lost my prescription slip. i thought it was in my wallet. it's not. so i will have to just deal with it. and pop aleve all night til i burn a hole in my stomach lining.

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Here is how I update late at night when I find myself looking through old pictures.

Picture from last September:



Ray, his little girl, and my little cousin.

One from xmas eve:



From October in Pittsburgh:



The other effect of looking at pictures from the past 6 months is my god i've gotten fat again.

I'm so tired.

oh but check it out, my niece got her ears pierced.


oh and don't let the new avatar fool you. that is NOT how i feel right now.

it's after three am. i'm crashing. i don't mean i'm going to bed. i mean i'm falling apart. maybe gonna throw up. except i don't do shit like that. i'm just gonna sit here or sit over there and hate myself some more until i give up and sleep through everything tomorrow.