i'm thinking of dropping one of my classes. but if i do, i'm scared to know what will happen to my financial aid. i won't be full time any more, you see. do they take the money back? i just don't want to have a breakdown. i think i need to slow down a little bit or i might fuck it all up. and one of my classes just isn't for me, so it might be best to kill it. can they take my money back? i can't afford it if they do.

i'm gonna find a school advisor tomorrow. this is important. stupid thing is, i'll only be 2 credits short of full time. what's 2 credits after all? i've never withdrawn a course before. but i think it's better than failing. and if i fail one class, it will be like i failed them all. if i kill one class i can still graduate in december.

... I looked and there might be a loophole that I can make up a class later... but I have to check of course. i've got 3 semesters on the dean's list. that has to count for something.