Today feels better. I dunno... I just feel kind of numb to it. As much crying as I did on Sunday, I don't really feel that sad anymore. I think it's because I'm just not letting myself think about it. I'm still not even thinking like a single girl, either, though. Occasionally it will occur to me, that hey, if I wanted I could go play with what's his name and it would be okay. But it's more like a novelty. I could go slut around, but I really don't feel like it. There is one exception to that non-single feeling. I feel single when I talk to him. But I'm not going to talk about that.

Today was the first day of classes. I had 2 classes so far, totalling $160 in books. I still have two more classes. I'm buying the books online, so they will be cheaper than the damn bookstore... Meanwhile I'm anxiously waiting that financial aid refund check that will balance my books for a little while. Every time I think I'm catching up, I notice that my income is shrinking. One night a week, I am guaranteed to make over a hundred bucks. The rest of the week, I think I make $50 a day maybe 3 or 4 times if I'm lucky. That's only about $300 a week. If I had nothing extra like books, car trouble, or beer to pay for, I might scrape by.

Ok, enough ranting. I'm going to take a nap.

What should I do this Friday?