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I think we have the fuckers beat and I am happy. The date she cheated on him was before he cheated on her. And luckily they were not married long so any kind of alimony is going to be low. Got that from the lawyer this morning.

I am guessing he will have to pay something but not as high as we thought. He is perking up and I talked to him a while this morning. I wont ask him why he did what he did. I figure that is between him and the doc. I know why but will not bring it up. Why, I am not a psychologist by any means.

I have been working since 3am and may need to do that for the next week or so and then I am going on vacation somewhere. Shutting off the phone with a gone fishing sign up.

I may have a rant going, but I seem to be the focal point for drama. It must be the pragmatic swede in me and my superpower is to go into situations of extreme conflict and try ad resolve it. Maybe so I dont have to hear about it for weeks at a time. I am not callous or shallow by any means. I make decisions to calm the waves of hemming and hawing. Which makes me fucking nuts. And here to for why the dynamic of southern california makes me in-fucking-sane.

And maybe why I live in the sticks and work for myself. I dont hem and haw over shit. I look at the alternatives and decide on the best one. Cut and dry.

So if you have plans to leave this world by your own means, call a doc, get the help. Put a thought in your head that people out there care about you and the world will be worse off because of your decision. You think it will not matter but it does. The hole that you leave and the mess you leave behind has to be dealt with by someone. Be it family or police, lawyers, girlfriends, wives, husbands, etc.

And odds are you are an interesting person regardless of what the world thinks. A good friend of mine passed away back in october said- "The world needs more characters and not less".

End Rant.