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I feel like a weight has been lifted.... but I'm still kinda sad.

I broke things off with the GF today. I wish it would have been under better circumstances, but you gotta do what you gotta do to get by.

Basically, she's been screwing around with her director at work, behind my back, while still trying to "work on" our damaged relationship. I confronted her about my concerns previously, yet she still denied anything. WTF is it with my luck with relationships??? I guess they're just not for me...

I had to pull the "card" and give her a copy of some emails that I had "stumbled" upon that were passed between them. I went to her desk and said "Here's some papers for you. I don't think dinner is such a good idea tonight.". She had called and left me a message earlier that she wanted to do dinner tonight. I turned before I left the building and simply said "Bye.".

I don't really know what happened next, nor do I really care at this point, because the last month or so of my life has been thrown into upheaval. We were supposed to be trying to work things out, and we even went to our first counseling session last Friday. Looks like that was a BIG waste of time.

It's a long and stupid story, and I won't go into trivial details here. I'm just happy I now have the closure that she has been denying me the past few weeks. It sucks what I had to do and how I had to go about it, and I did not really like it, but she needed a reality check. I just checked out.

So anyway, I may update again soon, but this is the bullshit that is my life at the moment. It will get better and I will be out having some fun soon. Just need to take a step back to gather my thoughts...

Hope all's well in your neighborhood.