I feel like i'm getting back to where I belong...

emotional highs and lows.... sleepless nights and confusing days that meld into a long string of events that I can't remember fully, but have some vague idea of what is going on.

Ah yes, i'm more comfortable when things are weird... when they aren't I start to think about things that don't really matter, like how fast i'm balding and how fat i'm getting, which only makes it worse in the end...

I think it's the anticipation of something that I have been waiting for a long time that is making it this way. Something exciting and new and scary all at the same time. And to be with you while i'm there, well that is just the whole thing isn't it? You are amazing and wonderful and I cannot wait.