godlessnerd

My new goals for this month or two:

1. Stop eating crap

2. Stop doing stupid shit, stop following my heart. Recently, it has only gotten me into a predicament that I don't think I'll get out of.

3. Stop being lazy, and excercise.

4. Stop having crappy furniture, and get good stuff.

5. Stop spraining my ankles.

Tomorrow is going to be clean the apartment day, clean the soul day. I need a good soul cleaning every once in a while, to tell myself that I am not a bad person, that I am worth something to someone, that i'm not a peice of shit. I dunno, I guess the past few weeks, thats all I've been thinking about, and it needs to stop, because its bad for my health. I need to stop sitting in this pile of crap that my heart and my head have put me in, and get my shit together. There are just certain things that I have never stopped dwelling over, for years, and I need to if I'm going to find this happiness that I want. Maybe I just need to cry some things out, of punch some things out, but I have no outlet to do this, no one that i'm close enough to, that I can just vent to.