I'm not even in the mood to update... but here's a massive hello to everyone. Did you miss me? Wonder where my thrice daily posts were? Ya, I did too, I was getting worried that I died or something. Maybe I just got less annoying. Motherfuck I'm tired... what else is new?
I really really really wanna go to Warped Tour in Calgary this summer, but we'll have to wait and see if that actually happens. Road trip anyone?
Brutal midterm today, but THANK GOD that they're all over for a little while. School is stressing me to the max right now... I just HATE the not knowing about anything... ok, so here is my dilemma in shortened form (since I have to rant about it at some point, and now is as good as ever):
1) I am in the final term of an honours Biochemistry degree, woop de doo. I do not like nor want this degree anymore as it is not what I want to do with my life... I do not want to be a grad student or a lab tech or a drug company sales rep for the rest of my life. BLAH. However, I only decided this when I was at the end of my third year of what should have been a four year degree and the 'rents were all "oh just finish it, you'll be sorry if you don't"... so I continued... then got bronchitis for 6 months in my fourth year and had to drop a ton of classes (and did really shitty in the rest of them) and now, we are in the fifth year and I just hate it.
2) I want to go into nursing, very badly. However due to my being so ill and the average just dropping... I am terrified that I just can't compete with the keeners coming out of high school. I actually did apply last year to the regular 4 year NEPS (nursing education program of SK) and was waitlisted to no avail. BLAH. Therefore I assume that this year will be the same... and that program- it doesn't matter if you've sweated and cried and puked your way through 5 years of university or not... fuck them all. I wish I had decided on nursing 4 years ago and applied with my massively stellar high school marks... but I have stopped kicking myself for that as hindsight is always 20/20.
3) There is this brand new and still under approval "Second degree nursing" program that I did apply to here at my current school... but again, it is unknown if it will be approved or if I will even be accepted despite approval or not. This is shorter, 2 years rather than 4, and takes into account that you already have (or have significant progress towards) a degree and therefore don't need as many garbage extra random classes that the normal NEPS requires... which is nice. This is what I would really like to do, and the outcome of being an RN at the end is the same. But with my luck it won't be approved or if it is, I'll still be rejected. STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE. Roar. That's right, I roared. And I'll do it again. However wish me luck on this one, as apparently the preliminary acceptance letters are being sent out next week. *fingers crossed*... come on, cross yours with me.
4) I also applied to Nutrition/Pharmacy today. I have no desire at all to be a pharmacist, but I could see myself as a dietician. Given my history with being ill as a young teen and spending time in the hospital... I have a lot of ideas as to how things could have been changed in terms of how dysfunctional the dietary part of rehabilitation was. And I intend to state this when I go to write the "critical skills" test and whatnot... but ya. That's kind of a backup... which might also fail... but whatever. ROAR.
5) My ultimate default was applying to the PCP (paramedic) program at SIAST. And I'm in for like December or March or something... hurray... but that's not what I want as a career either, but it would be fun for awhile and an easy thing relatively speaking. But again, BLAH.
What the hell am I going to seriously do if nothing that I really want happens? I am so scared of just... failing. Maybe I'll just quit everything and be a housewife... but that would require having someone that wanted to marry me and who could actually put up with me... *laughs hysterically*... alright, moving onto the next option. Lifer at Dairy Queen! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Maybe once Valentine's Day has passed I'll be slightly more optimistic. For one, I know that I'm going to be very very drunk for most of the day, even if its that I'm doing it all by myself at my parents' house in Moose Jaw (where I'm spending the school break... AWESOME
). I just hate V-day because it seems to get worse every year- I'm always either ditched/dumped/lied to/sad/alone... and ya, not a fan. Solution? Two words: SOUTHERN COMFORT. haha And that is almost exciting...
What a fucking rant, for someone that wasn't in the mood. Sorry Approximation, the update you want will be in the next entry. Peace be.
"Everyone needs a little devastation."
-Blood Brothers
I really really really wanna go to Warped Tour in Calgary this summer, but we'll have to wait and see if that actually happens. Road trip anyone?
Brutal midterm today, but THANK GOD that they're all over for a little while. School is stressing me to the max right now... I just HATE the not knowing about anything... ok, so here is my dilemma in shortened form (since I have to rant about it at some point, and now is as good as ever):
1) I am in the final term of an honours Biochemistry degree, woop de doo. I do not like nor want this degree anymore as it is not what I want to do with my life... I do not want to be a grad student or a lab tech or a drug company sales rep for the rest of my life. BLAH. However, I only decided this when I was at the end of my third year of what should have been a four year degree and the 'rents were all "oh just finish it, you'll be sorry if you don't"... so I continued... then got bronchitis for 6 months in my fourth year and had to drop a ton of classes (and did really shitty in the rest of them) and now, we are in the fifth year and I just hate it.
2) I want to go into nursing, very badly. However due to my being so ill and the average just dropping... I am terrified that I just can't compete with the keeners coming out of high school. I actually did apply last year to the regular 4 year NEPS (nursing education program of SK) and was waitlisted to no avail. BLAH. Therefore I assume that this year will be the same... and that program- it doesn't matter if you've sweated and cried and puked your way through 5 years of university or not... fuck them all. I wish I had decided on nursing 4 years ago and applied with my massively stellar high school marks... but I have stopped kicking myself for that as hindsight is always 20/20.
3) There is this brand new and still under approval "Second degree nursing" program that I did apply to here at my current school... but again, it is unknown if it will be approved or if I will even be accepted despite approval or not. This is shorter, 2 years rather than 4, and takes into account that you already have (or have significant progress towards) a degree and therefore don't need as many garbage extra random classes that the normal NEPS requires... which is nice. This is what I would really like to do, and the outcome of being an RN at the end is the same. But with my luck it won't be approved or if it is, I'll still be rejected. STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE. Roar. That's right, I roared. And I'll do it again. However wish me luck on this one, as apparently the preliminary acceptance letters are being sent out next week. *fingers crossed*... come on, cross yours with me.
4) I also applied to Nutrition/Pharmacy today. I have no desire at all to be a pharmacist, but I could see myself as a dietician. Given my history with being ill as a young teen and spending time in the hospital... I have a lot of ideas as to how things could have been changed in terms of how dysfunctional the dietary part of rehabilitation was. And I intend to state this when I go to write the "critical skills" test and whatnot... but ya. That's kind of a backup... which might also fail... but whatever. ROAR.
5) My ultimate default was applying to the PCP (paramedic) program at SIAST. And I'm in for like December or March or something... hurray... but that's not what I want as a career either, but it would be fun for awhile and an easy thing relatively speaking. But again, BLAH.
What the hell am I going to seriously do if nothing that I really want happens? I am so scared of just... failing. Maybe I'll just quit everything and be a housewife... but that would require having someone that wanted to marry me and who could actually put up with me... *laughs hysterically*... alright, moving onto the next option. Lifer at Dairy Queen! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Maybe once Valentine's Day has passed I'll be slightly more optimistic. For one, I know that I'm going to be very very drunk for most of the day, even if its that I'm doing it all by myself at my parents' house in Moose Jaw (where I'm spending the school break... AWESOME
). I just hate V-day because it seems to get worse every year- I'm always either ditched/dumped/lied to/sad/alone... and ya, not a fan. Solution? Two words: SOUTHERN COMFORT. haha And that is almost exciting...
What a fucking rant, for someone that wasn't in the mood. Sorry Approximation, the update you want will be in the next entry. Peace be.
"Everyone needs a little devastation."
-Blood Brothers
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As for Valentines day: Fuck it! I, too, have been screwed over hard on V-Day's throughout life so I just say fuck it. I'm going to stay home with my cat, a ton of movies and a whole lotta something intoxicating and just alternate between the three. Boo Valentine's Day!