I am so stressed out! I'm seriously considering medication but here's my deal on that:
I think I'm completely justified in being stressed out. No normal person should even have to deal with the shit I deal with. I think I am reacting normally to abnormal circumstances. The problem is I can't let go. The stress is the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep and the first thought that comes to me when I wake up and this is no way to lead life. Do meds numb you from feelings that should be there? I don't want to be blocked emotionally and I don't want to take them forever just on an as needed basis or perhaps as I'm leaving work. Like if I could have just one portion of my brain think about work and I could just shut it off when I'm not there. See even now I'm home yet clearly thinking about work.
The only time I don't think about / talk about / breath about this job is when I'm snowboarding or surfing. I guess I should just do those things more that'd probably be cheaper than filling a perscription for meds.
I also need to remember the following phrase "never let 'em see you sweat". Which ironically I told someone today. Now if only I could follow my own advice. And if I could just leave work at work.
Gee I sound crazy.
One eyed pirates are crazy.
I think I'm completely justified in being stressed out. No normal person should even have to deal with the shit I deal with. I think I am reacting normally to abnormal circumstances. The problem is I can't let go. The stress is the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep and the first thought that comes to me when I wake up and this is no way to lead life. Do meds numb you from feelings that should be there? I don't want to be blocked emotionally and I don't want to take them forever just on an as needed basis or perhaps as I'm leaving work. Like if I could have just one portion of my brain think about work and I could just shut it off when I'm not there. See even now I'm home yet clearly thinking about work.
The only time I don't think about / talk about / breath about this job is when I'm snowboarding or surfing. I guess I should just do those things more that'd probably be cheaper than filling a perscription for meds.
I also need to remember the following phrase "never let 'em see you sweat". Which ironically I told someone today. Now if only I could follow my own advice. And if I could just leave work at work.
Gee I sound crazy.
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unknown_path:
i didnt like meds, they made my condition worse. and i felt numb. i hated it so, i took myself off of them. hope this helps, im me on yahoo if you need to talk sweetie, *hugs 
germ13:
sounds like you need a foot rub and some lovin