godess_akasha

The ex boyfriend. So, I just went to cancell a subscription that I'm not using anymore and I forgot my password and requested it. Only to find that it was a combination of my last name and my ex's last name My bank code is a mix of my favorite numbers and his. My computer code at work are his group of numbers. When I left I just grabbed half the black socks in the drawer and those are still the socks I reach for to keep my feet warm at night. Mainly 'cause they're too stretched out to wear with shoes during the day not that it's intentional for me to grab them. And currently in all 4 of the auditoriums at work we're playing one of his favorite artists as intermission music. Josheph Arthur. There are so many reminders of him. It ended a long time ago and yet there are still all these things and it sucks I want to be happy for him since he's my friend but I don't like that he is engaged to someone he met on myspace after only knowing them for 2 months. I want to say it gives me hope that when you meet the right person you really will just know but that's not really how I feel I need to get over it. It seems like when I don't have anything else bothering me I always fall back on missing him. I'm just lonely right now. It will pass. One day maybe I'll even quit viewing him as the one that got away...