I'm annoyed with my life right now. I've started sleeping because I have nothing better to do 
I got the blahs right before my birthday, then the day before my birthday I found out that one of my ex's is going to have a baby. I don't know why this bothers me so much because we've been broken up a long time but, it does. Then was the birthday and it's my last before I turn 30 so, it's like I wanted to make the most of this year but, nothing eventful took place. Then, shortly after, I found out that my other ex who is 40 is dating an 18 year old. My yoga instructor that I have a crush on wasn't speaking to me for two weeks, I'm still injured from yoga. I need a vacation but it's too expensive and my house is one of the things I like to get away from. I don't even know who to take on vacation anymore. I used to pay for the ex to go even though we were broken up because I felt safe traveling with a boy and because I felt like if I paid I could decide how the time on the vacation was spent. I'm lonely and lately that's caused me to go back to some of my old eating habits that I've worked so hard to stop so that I could loose some weight. I need to get motivated again. But the thing that really inspired me last time was getting let down and I'm not anxious to get let down again.
I got the blahs right before my birthday, then the day before my birthday I found out that one of my ex's is going to have a baby. I don't know why this bothers me so much because we've been broken up a long time but, it does. Then was the birthday and it's my last before I turn 30 so, it's like I wanted to make the most of this year but, nothing eventful took place. Then, shortly after, I found out that my other ex who is 40 is dating an 18 year old. My yoga instructor that I have a crush on wasn't speaking to me for two weeks, I'm still injured from yoga. I need a vacation but it's too expensive and my house is one of the things I like to get away from. I don't even know who to take on vacation anymore. I used to pay for the ex to go even though we were broken up because I felt safe traveling with a boy and because I felt like if I paid I could decide how the time on the vacation was spent. I'm lonely and lately that's caused me to go back to some of my old eating habits that I've worked so hard to stop so that I could loose some weight. I need to get motivated again. But the thing that really inspired me last time was getting let down and I'm not anxious to get let down again.
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abracadabra:
let's see..you like Rozz Williams..check..good tastes in movies and other things..check..you seem fun..you should go to streetscene in San Diego..i'm going to the saturday show..i fly into LAX , renting a car , then driving there..i could give ya a lift or you could meet me there..gonna be fun!..cheers
userunknown:
No worries. No stress! It'll all be okay. Stuff works out. I got smacked down recently too and it'll all work out I'm sure. I agree with snow1147. Go out and do stuff for yourself! If you got down to San Diego, lemme know. I'm more familiar with that place than my hometown so I got all kindsa goodies you can do. I'll be happy to share my secrets. Tons of cool places to shop and eat and explore for yourself. Or with someone else even! It'll be fun, I promise. Believe me, I spend every moment away from home down there. I agree with you on being out of the house. Have a goodnight!