godess_akasha

I'm sad. For the past two nights, I've had the house to myself which I thought I'd like but, I don't, it just makes me realize I'm lonely. Tonight, I could've gone to my ex's but, I'd rather wake up in my own bed so I can go to the gym tomorrow. Plus it's not like we're going to get back together so, there's really no point. Grrr, and I have a crush on someone and I'm not going to do anything about it because I think it would create an awkward situation if I got rejected which is likely 'cause I don't really know the person. But, the crush and the likelyhood that it's not returned causes me to kinda act mean and glare and rush out of the place where I see my crush. Then, I got blown off by this totally hot guy and lets just say that under the circumstances he should be a little nicer to me but, I guess I didn't really pay him much attention and so, since that was what I was giving off perhaps, he thought that's how I wanted him to act too. I do not feel good about my life or myself today. And although I"m the one that has said I don't want to date this year, I also don't want to be one of those people you hear about that hasn't had a date in years and I feel like that is the path I'm on right now.
Today someone proposed to his girlfriend in the middle of the mall and yeah...