When I go out now and I get dressed up, I feel exactly that "dressed up" and somewhat ridiculous. I think it's the blond hair and that I can no longer pull off the 6"inch heels in public thing. I feel like I can't dye my hair because my job would freak out. At the same time when I go out I feel dressed up, on most days I feel too normal and I'm not presenting who I really am I just feel boring. I used to think that because I wore black and creepers that I people could tell I had at least been around and would gain their respect but that doesn't happen. I hate all this I wish I could wear the nurse costume everyday. Truth be told I wouldn't even wear that when I go out 'cause it doesn't cover my ass.
I feel old.
I feel old.
you just have to do what makes you happy