Hoping the new year brings me a job....any job. I literally can't go on much longer living like this.

Between my bills, mom's medical bills and medicine, and just keeping food on the table, I'm literally fucked as of the next bill cycle. No money in my checking or savings....cards all maxed out. All out fucked. My sister is helping as much as she can as well, but she has two kids to feed on top of all the same kinds of normal bills and such.

Trying to find a bank that will let me take a loan out against my car so we can try to float by a little longer, but I don't know if that's going to be easy to get approved in the current situation.

Christmas was just another Saturday this year. My family didn't get together, no presents, nothing. I slept almost all day.

I've been trying to be that person who stays positive and says shit like "well we have a roof over our heads" or "I'm sure plenty of people have it worse."...but that mask gets heavy fast and I'm tired of wearing it.

So as some of you know, I'm stubborn as fuck and despise asking for help, but if anyone has a few bucks to toss our way until things turn around a bit it'd be awesome. If not that's cool too, I know shit is tough for everyone right now.

Every little bit would be a huge help.