I really don't understand the human race I guess.
How can you go from keeping somebody from killing themself...helping them kick drug addiction...and tutoring them so they aren't failing out of school ...just being a great friend to them and always there for them....to somebody they totally shit on and hate with all their heart?
I gave my whole heart to helping this person turn their life around for the better...and being such a good person, the person they said they always wanted to be.
Then suddenly they meet the "perfect" person for them and get dragged back down into all the shit they claimed to hate so damn much in the past and I become a thorn in their side. I guess I'm all of a sudden a turn coat...my ways that were so great of an influence in the past suddenly are something evil and taboo. I go from savior friend to public enemy number one.
Apparently caring so much, wanting a person to have a good life, the life they say they want to live, makes me an asshole. I guess I am a bad person for wanting you to succeed and reach your potential, instead of ending up unhappy like your sister did and unhappy like I have been lately.
I weep for you, for your ignorance of youth, if I only had somebody who cared for me like that when I was your age, I would be a much better person today.
Despite how much you say you hate me and how much you wish I had never tried to help you reach what you said you wanted in life. I would do it all over again in an instant too, even if that makes me a god damned fool, but I really cared and really wished you nothing but to be happy.
Somebody once told me you can't save the world, you can't save everyone....but sometimes if I could even just save one person from themself, it'd make all the difference in the world in my heart.
I guess the only one who can save a person, is that person themself....
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Quick update before I go to work, I feel a little better than last night, although I didn't sleep real good, but I can get into that later.
It's time for work...and...wee....we got fucking snow last night, how quaint. FUCK YOU SNOW! =P
How can you go from keeping somebody from killing themself...helping them kick drug addiction...and tutoring them so they aren't failing out of school ...just being a great friend to them and always there for them....to somebody they totally shit on and hate with all their heart?
I gave my whole heart to helping this person turn their life around for the better...and being such a good person, the person they said they always wanted to be.
Then suddenly they meet the "perfect" person for them and get dragged back down into all the shit they claimed to hate so damn much in the past and I become a thorn in their side. I guess I'm all of a sudden a turn coat...my ways that were so great of an influence in the past suddenly are something evil and taboo. I go from savior friend to public enemy number one.
Apparently caring so much, wanting a person to have a good life, the life they say they want to live, makes me an asshole. I guess I am a bad person for wanting you to succeed and reach your potential, instead of ending up unhappy like your sister did and unhappy like I have been lately.
I weep for you, for your ignorance of youth, if I only had somebody who cared for me like that when I was your age, I would be a much better person today.
Despite how much you say you hate me and how much you wish I had never tried to help you reach what you said you wanted in life. I would do it all over again in an instant too, even if that makes me a god damned fool, but I really cared and really wished you nothing but to be happy.
Somebody once told me you can't save the world, you can't save everyone....but sometimes if I could even just save one person from themself, it'd make all the difference in the world in my heart.
I guess the only one who can save a person, is that person themself....
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Quick update before I go to work, I feel a little better than last night, although I didn't sleep real good, but I can get into that later.
It's time for work...and...wee....we got fucking snow last night, how quaint. FUCK YOU SNOW! =P
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emily:
No snow here yet....odd..it's fucking Alaska...come on!!Meh.....
zeroburritos:
mwah enjoy the snow 