I had the busiest Saturday ever. From 9 am to 5pm I stood outside Trader Joe's collecting food and passing out shopping lists that helped stock the Santa Cruz AIDS Project's pantry for those in Santa Cruz who suffer from AIDS and are on fixed incomes. I think we collected something around 4 shopping carts full of food (approx. 700 pounds). I watched one man's bike while he went inside to shop and he came out with $40 worth of food/protein powder/toiletries and donated all of it. He grinned as he pulled out the large scotch bottle and said, "You can have the rest. My friend died of AIDS a few years ago and what you're doing here today would've helped someone like him." It seriously broke my heart... Even though I donated my time I decided to buy some food as well. Now I find myself on the verge of being broke but its totally worth it.
After the volunteering I took a shower and realized I had a verticle oval sunburn on my chest and some redness in my cheeks. (Which means the next few days I'll be forcing myself to avoid the lovely sunshine.) Nils took me to his friend's BBQ which he was invited to after judging a cycling race on campus. Everyone there was a cyclist and had nametags with their cycling teams and bike nicknames. I've never felt so out of place. Had I not been sunburned I probably would'nt have fit in at all! He agreed that there were too many people and we escaped for a 10 minute catnap before progressing into a night of barhopping with a few of my friends. Jas, one of my best friends from home that also lives in Santa Cruz gave his approval of Nils which shouldn't be that important, but it was. I'm glad he thinks he's an honest guy. He has a good judge of character while I slowly see mine fading into a pessimistic view. I can't wait until all that paranoia from pot and bad experiences gets out of my system so I can appreciate a great guy without thinking he has ulterior motives or wants to cheat on me. Insecurity is a bitch sometimes... its even more annoying because I know its all in my head.
If you want to cheat on someone, don't. The person you're cheating on will never be the same.
After the volunteering I took a shower and realized I had a verticle oval sunburn on my chest and some redness in my cheeks. (Which means the next few days I'll be forcing myself to avoid the lovely sunshine.) Nils took me to his friend's BBQ which he was invited to after judging a cycling race on campus. Everyone there was a cyclist and had nametags with their cycling teams and bike nicknames. I've never felt so out of place. Had I not been sunburned I probably would'nt have fit in at all! He agreed that there were too many people and we escaped for a 10 minute catnap before progressing into a night of barhopping with a few of my friends. Jas, one of my best friends from home that also lives in Santa Cruz gave his approval of Nils which shouldn't be that important, but it was. I'm glad he thinks he's an honest guy. He has a good judge of character while I slowly see mine fading into a pessimistic view. I can't wait until all that paranoia from pot and bad experiences gets out of my system so I can appreciate a great guy without thinking he has ulterior motives or wants to cheat on me. Insecurity is a bitch sometimes... its even more annoying because I know its all in my head.
If you want to cheat on someone, don't. The person you're cheating on will never be the same.
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omeganightmare:
eh, you would be suprised. There is alot of folks in my business that do it for completly different reasons. And there are some real assholes out there to

monroe:
Ugh sunburns are the WORST! Except I'd be thrilled if it was warm enough to get one at the moment here!